So it would seem, when I thought I was saved
When I got past all my guilt and all I forgave
When I thought I was fine and my anger had faded
Feelings come back …to remind me I’m jaded
I do not see much for me, I am all alone
I know now I'll continue …to reap what I have sewn
I have been living this life, that has no appeal
Every day when I wake, it's getting harder to deal
But I am faced once again …with having to let something go
As I am forced to pay off this life debt that I owe
After living this life …this one that tore me apart
I don’t think I have what it takes for me to restart
I'm feeling all my doubts; not addressing my concern
As it boils from within me … I'm feeling its burn
I walked to window, looked out at the sky
I can't find any answers …I just don't know why
I just want this pain; that has been inside my heart
Leave me for a moment … this pain’s not an art
I don't want to feel this way; I can't find a reason to smile
The further I walk … the pain adds one more mile
What is my outcome … Why did I taste something great?
Why was it stripped from my lips... before I had a chance to eat
I tried rolling over, to try to go back to sleep
But I’m lying here alone, every night as I weep
Can anybody hear me, why has nobody called?
Why when I was willing …my life suddenly stalled
I don’t think I can do this and go living on this way
I feel I have no reason, to wake up everyday
I am so hurt and I'm so angry … at the choices I had prayed
I am losing the man that somebody way back loved
The man that beat his battles … because he finally shoved
But this image I had created …The image I did not mind to see
I see that is the life … that’s just not meant to be
© 2002 Eric R. Garcia. All rights reserved http://www.blizzardsofthought.com
Just not meant to be
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Re: Just not meant to be
Hi, Eric, I feel a lot of anguish in this poem. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. God put you hear for a purpose. And if you focus on others, maybe you will have less time to dwell on yourself and your problems. And you say you have prayed. To whom? The God I know would not leave you in this anaguished state. I hope you will invite God into your life and He will give you peace. Best thoughts for a better outlook for you.
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Re: Just not meant to be
I agree there is anguish in this poem. Personal pain we sometimes endure in life makes us what we are. It's easy to loose oneself in such a place but with bravery easy to find ones way back and be a stronger person for it. Keeping going.
God never promised life would be easy, just that it would be worth it.
God never promised life would be easy, just that it would be worth it.
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Re: Just not meant to be
So many times I go back and reflect on what I had written. I remember how it helped me, I know I had to live through that for some reason in order to be where I am today . We do not come from the same moments but we all must go through our own journey!
Ty for your comments!
Ty for your comments!
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