Just not meant to be

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Eric
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Just not meant to be

Post by Eric » Mon Jun 11, 2012 3:25 pm

So it would seem, when I thought I was saved
When I got past all my guilt and all I forgave
When I thought I was fine and my anger had faded
Feelings come back …to remind me I’m jaded
I do not see much for me, I am all alone
I know now I'll continue …to reap what I have sewn
I have been living this life, that has no appeal
Every day when I wake, it's getting harder to deal
But I am faced once again …with having to let something go
As I am forced to pay off this life debt that I owe
After living this life …this one that tore me apart
I don’t think I have what it takes for me to restart
I'm feeling all my doubts; not addressing my concern
As it boils from within me … I'm feeling its burn
I walked to window, looked out at the sky
I can't find any answers …I just don't know why
I just want this pain; that has been inside my heart
Leave me for a moment … this pain’s not an art
I don't want to feel this way; I can't find a reason to smile
The further I walk … the pain adds one more mile
What is my outcome … Why did I taste something great?
Why was it stripped from my lips... before I had a chance to eat
I tried rolling over, to try to go back to sleep
But I’m lying here alone, every night as I weep
Can anybody hear me, why has nobody called?
Why when I was willing …my life suddenly stalled
I don’t think I can do this and go living on this way
I feel I have no reason, to wake up everyday
I am so hurt and I'm so angry … at the choices I had prayed
I am losing the man that somebody way back loved
The man that beat his battles … because he finally shoved
But this image I had created …The image I did not mind to see
I see that is the life … that’s just not meant to be

© 2002 Eric R. Garcia. All rights reserved http://www.blizzardsofthought.com
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Re: Just not meant to be

Post by DarleneG » Sun Jul 01, 2012 8:00 pm

Hi, Eric, I feel a lot of anguish in this poem. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. God put you hear for a purpose. And if you focus on others, maybe you will have less time to dwell on yourself and your problems. And you say you have prayed. To whom? The God I know would not leave you in this anaguished state. I hope you will invite God into your life and He will give you peace. Best thoughts for a better outlook for you. :hearts:
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Cariad
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Re: Just not meant to be

Post by Cariad » Wed Jul 04, 2012 1:54 pm

I agree there is anguish in this poem. Personal pain we sometimes endure in life makes us what we are. It's easy to loose oneself in such a place but with bravery easy to find ones way back and be a stronger person for it. Keeping going.

God never promised life would be easy, just that it would be worth it.

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Re: Just not meant to be

Post by Eric » Wed Jul 04, 2012 5:59 pm

So many times I go back and reflect on what I had written. I remember how it helped me, I know I had to live through that for some reason in order to be where I am today . We do not come from the same moments but we all must go through our own journey!

Ty for your comments! :cheers:
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