Jen

[Adrian]

I don't really know what to say, or even how to say it. I miss Jen, I am still in shock, still crying days later. Jen was a presence on earth that was quietly powerful, and the void can never be filled.

I don't suppose any of you know me. I am Adrian one her friends from THAT other poetry site, pathetic. Jen and I spent countless hours talking, laughing, venting, etc. We even endured 'Black Friday' together, and came out of it as stronger friends. Even if she was about to unload on me, it always brightened my day to see/talk to her. I could trust Jen with anything, and we shared a lot over the years. I could always count on Jen, and I hope likewise. In many ways she needed a crutch now and then, but looking back I can clearly see now, she was my crutch. As a friend I loved Jen.

I've no idea where the roads lead from here, or if they even continue on, but Jen will remain in my heart for all the days I have left. To Lisa, thank you, and I am truly sorry. My sympathy makes losing Jen no easier, but know that you are not alone. May God comfort you. My heart breaks for Rena.

I thank you at this site for putting this forum into place. It is nice to come and see her being remembered and living on in each of us. I thank you for allowing people such as I to participate. Jen has passed the torch to us, and now we must carry on her fight.

For Jen
For a brief time her presence graced us,
never wanting the spotlight or attention,
she put others before herself.

Even though her world was dark,
she always managed to make my day brighter.
An ear that could be trusted with anything,
a shoulder when support was needed,
no matter what, she was always there.

Always there...

No longer here.
That concept not fully sunk in as yet.
Still dealing with emotions,
fighting the tears that come all too easy.

I cannot quite imagine the world without her,
and I am sure it will never be the same again.
There are no words to express how I truly feel
at this very moment in time.
I know life goes on, and she would want it that way,
but I also know that my world has lost a shining star.
A dear friend that I can no longer make smile when she's blue.

What do you do when Ravyns fly away,
heading for higher places to soar.
When shattered angels finally get their perfect wings,
it leaves a void that can never be filled in ones soul.

In my heart forever she shall remain,
and in other places, another day,
we shall see each other again.

05/24/2004

Author's Note: forever in my heart

Copyright © 2004 Adrian Calhoun

[thief of dreams]

thank you for stopping by Adrian and sharing with us your thoughts... you are right, the torch has been passed... tears of sadness can extinguish the flame, but tears of joy and remembreance will only raise the flame higher...

[jhanke]

[Friend_forever]

Thank you for sharing that, adrian... I never knew Jen... But i begin to know what a beautiful person she was with all the poems and sweet words from people like you...