For Cindy

[hockeychickkayla]

A stuffed nose
Tears pouring
And a big yawn
Blacking out
Daydream episodes
And coming back to reality
Confused mind
Racing thoughts
Voices in my head repeating
Scarred arm
Bloody razor
I feel like screaming
Too much is going on in my mind
This is all her fault
She is playing with my mind as if it were a toy
I can't sleep, I haven't slept in days
Every moment of consciousness and unconsciousness she's with me
I want to let her go
But I crave her more than ever
She's a liar, she doesn't care about me
All I am is a number
But why do I forgive her
I hate her so much
She still controls me over 2,000 miles away
Never far enough from her grasp
I hate her
I fucking hate her
But I still love her just as much