Raven Aurora

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<center> Poetry by Raven Aurora </center>

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<a href="#001"> Murder My Soul </a>
<a href="#002"> The Raven </a>
<a href="#003"> Glitter </a>
<a href="#004"> Imperfect Saint </a>
<a href="#005"> Parallel Souls </a>
<a href="#006"> The Way We Were </a>
<a href="#007"> Rainy Day Thoughts </a>
<a href="#008"> Void </a>
<a href="#009"> Unbreakable </a>
<a href="#010"> Identity </a>
<a href="#011">Untitled </a>
<a href="#012"> Gifts of the Father </a>
<a href="#013"> Watch Me Bleed </a>
<a href="#014"> Providence's Cradle </a>
<a href="#015"> To Live Without Air </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#016">[b] Ordinary Girl [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#017">[b] Colorblind [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#018">[b] Join Me In Death [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#019">[b] Great Expectations [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#020">[b] Cold Blood [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#021">[b] Everyone Else [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#022">[b] Shape of My Heart [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#023">[b] My Own Worst Enemy [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#024">[b] Poetic Justice [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#025">[b] Nineteen Years of Sorrow [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#026">[b] Metamorphosis [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#027">[b] Knight In Shining Armor [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#028">[b] Downward Spiral [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#029">[b] Imaginary Refuge [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 15#030">[b] Slaughter [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 031">[b]If You Knew[/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty two"> Personal Conversation </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty three"> Pain </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty four"> In My Skin </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty five" > One Kiss </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty six"> Remember When </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty seven"> Lost Soul </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty eight"> Dark Moonshine </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... =30#thirty nine"> Rage Against Society </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty two"> Discouraged </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty three"> Sorrow Song </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty four"> Tame the Flame </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty five"> Outer Heaven </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty six"> As The White Candle Burns </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty seven"> Opera of the Lotus </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty eight"> Secretly </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=30#forty nine"> One With the Night </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... #fifty">[b] Jagged Dagger [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty one"> Blood Exchange </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty two"> Meadow Maiden </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty three"> Crimson Regret </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty four"> Middle of Nowhere </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty five"> Happily Ever After </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty six"> The Silence Within </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty seven"> Trapped Butterfly </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty eight"> Fragile </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#fifty nine"> Bad Luck Charm </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... #sixty">[b] Pieces of You [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#sixty one"> Dual Minority </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#sixty two"> Psalm of Perdition </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#sixty three"> Glass Hearts </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=45#sixty four"> Hardship Avenue </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=60#sixty five"> Vanity </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=60#sixty six"> Anywhere But Here </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=60#sixty seven"> I Don't Believe </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=60#sixty eight"> Turquoise Sky </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... t=60#sixty nine"> Open Your Heart </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... eventy">[b] Battle Cries of the Scorned [/b]</a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy one"> Realm Unknown </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy two"> Fireflies </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy three"> Rules </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy four"> Painted Smile </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy five"> Unfinished Symphony </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy six"> Hopeless Devotion </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy seven"> Even If Only A Moment </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy eight"> City Stories </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... 60#seventy nine"> Lady Sings the Blues </a>
<a href="http://www.poetrypages.com/phpBB2/viewt ... eighty">[b] Ghetto Children [/b]</a>
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<a name="#001"> Murder My Soul </a>

Dreams were suffocated in youth,
Never allowed to take roots and grow
Instead acquainting myself with pain;
Suffering is the only certainty I know
Maybe my battle scars can be hidden
Behind a stone demeanor and glass face,
Yet all the while my spirit crumbles
Pretense no longer appears full of grace
I can never flourish in my own time
Since others exist through me vicariously;
However hard my attempt, none are sated
Until they day comes when they destroy me

Whenever in the presence of another,
Shame coerces me to hide away tears;
Once time provides for lonesome space
Each sorrow escapes in memory of years
Past but never placed within my grasp
And missed chances to form an identity;
Chains of criticism and external loathing
Hold me down; all I want is to be free
But perhaps that is not meant to be so,
For now I confront the end of this rope
That proves useless to my integral being
Lost without direction or a ray of hope

More often than not, I keep to shadows
To protect what's left of whoever I am
You stripped my ability to be human,
Not that anyone would ever give a damn
All through this life roaming aimlessly,
So many days I've had to exist in fear
Of brutal and unjust chastisement;
Even today, you turn an unfazed ear
Just do your worst; please continue
While I seek to replay this hard role,
As all the passion within is long dead
Because you've utterly murdered my soul.

note to all: I have a reputation for writing some very depressing things. Anyone who knows me knows I don't take (destructive) criticism that well, either...oh well...

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<a name="#002"> The Raven </a>

note: it begins saddening, but ends inspirational. enjoy...

A harbinger of sorrow
Guarding the lost souls
Roaming earth aimlessly,
One's eyes may observe
The many trails of this
Woeful bird in flight

Yet she and I are one;
United by our hardships,
Drowning in deep grief
People may often wonder
Why my stare is bleak
And her feathers are dark

Somehow I find a reason
To reach for new heights
For someone in existence
Might discover new strength,
Feeding the eternal inferno
Of unseen wisdom and courage

Although I may still bear
Nearly all the world's troubles
Upon my weakened shoulders,
I can still soar above heaven
And continue to persevere
Despite my once severed wings.

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<a name="#003"> Glitter </a>

It may appear as your dream,
All the glitter, glitz and gleam
Coming with your name in lights
And touring on chartered flights
Mere objects, such trifling thing;
Treasures that only greed brings

In the eyes of every girl and boy,
Such objects engender transient joy
But you crave that which will last
Drawing advice from a cruel past,
You only feel the internal pain
When there's naught fancy left to gain

Remember that one's true content
Comes not from what they've spent;
Just because one possesses money
Doesn't make them completely happy
And none should ever seek to neglect
Their spiritual being, heart or intellect

Even with the bright allure of glitter,
Unfulfilled souls can still be bitter
Life can never fully or solely circulate
Around value which may soon depreciate
So place all of your fondest dreams
On reality instead of just what seems.

note: this is my first contribution to the "general" category, although I'm my own worst critic. enjoy...

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<a name="#004"> Imperfect Saint </a>

Remember in silence the kind souls
Who sacrificed their own few comforts
In exchange for lives of servitude;
Poverty and chastity are their provisions
For the sake of many not as fortunate,
They choose to go without some luxuries
Or even those more precious objects
Society seems to always take for granted

Remember services rendered in altruism
To fully embrace their destitute siblings;
Healing the wounded and tending crops
Whenever others were at times unable,
Be aware of those who fought for change
And advancement of every race of mankind;
Some of them compromised their existence,
Becoming martyrs for the greater benefit

Remember that they're still only human;
No matter what the extent of their deeds,
All of those we revere long after death
Were born of human flesh and blood
Charitable works change life for the better
But do not completely purge inperfections;
For a saint is but a sinner who once fell,
Yet was able to pick up and try again.

note: this isn't completely spiritual, but it does have spiritual undertones. can I get a witness?

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<a name="#005"> Parallel Souls </a>

note: this was a Valentine's Day "gift" to my boyfriend...let me know what you think....

Each time I wake from sleep,
I lose myself in your gaze...
Eyes that so closely reflect me
How can the thought be feasible?
Whenever I stare into those pools,
My image haunts me once again

You are the epitome of perfect;
Love embraces your internal being
Without turning a blinded eye
Grateful to heaven each waking hour,
I smile with replete happiness,
Rejoicing in the glow of my soulmate

More than a friend of any kind,
The only one tantamount to myself,;
In my heart, you are my equal
Our experiences become common ground
Sealing us as one and the same entity
Until times beyond known infinity

Escape from myself I never achieve
Because when I see you, I see me
Parallel souls fuse as time passes by;
Truly, our lives begin to mesh together
For in the great scheme of all things,
We were born just for one another.

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<a name="#006"> The Way We Were </a>

question: don't you miss the good old days?

Back in what we call the 'good old days'
Music carried more positive, poignant words;
For us, war was a distant, unlikely possibility
And a dollar could stretch three times further
Times were mellow; almost everyone got along,
Conflicts numbered few, but smiles multiplied
How we now long for the yesteryears since past;
If only time could be rewinded, mistakes undone,
Our hindsight instead served as premonition,
Would we return to the way we once were?
Perhaps I am not the only person still extant
Wishing to couple today's standards of living
Alongside the carefree status of decades ago;
Every generation has seen many better days
Subsequent descendants can only conjure in mind,
So who is to say they've seen the best of times?
Can we, truly, or is that our parents' privilege?
However good or bad, we retain precious memories
Just as the members of decades born before us
And those who may appear in the hereafter.

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<a name="#007"> Rainy Day Thoughts </a>

As the raindrops begin to fall,
I think of things, the great and small
We could do if only you were here;
There's no more cruel, arresting fear
Since the day you unexpectedly came,
My life beyond has been free of shame

Reminiscing upon recent times past,
I still can't believe love can last
But all our long talks into the night
Convinced me that it all felt right
And there's no place I'd rather you be
Than in my arms, laying beside me

Whenever it rains, I muse about you,
Desiring to act on things that lovers do;
I wish we could replay the short days
Each showed devotion in numerous ways
For I'd hope upon the brightest star
Just to be close to wherever you are.

I hope you all like this...enjoy!

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<a name="#008"> Void </a>

Within, a spirit long dead
Passes aimlessly through days,
Enshrouded by dissension
And clouds of chaotic haze;
No immediate escape appears
From this indefinite dark phase

Remnants of a shattered child
Swiftly retreat to the haven inside
Here each piece finds sacred shelter
Away from the world when I hide
So broken the psyche, now in pieces,
Not a soul around in which to confide

I can feel parts of myself dissipate,
Discontent churning as they fade
Only then do I allow feelings to show,
Refraining from inflicting a severe upbraid
To my soul, already brimming with pain
Stemming from many past mistakes made

Emptiness of body, soul and heart
Presents itself as my only real friend;
Without needed fortitude and hope,
For any canard, my vessel would bend
Breaking easily, giving in to pressures
Leading me to a sad yet inevitable end

Often I wonder if in existence
There may be some miracle cure
For rampant pockets of dead space;
Such an anecdote would hold allure
And in a rush to heal myself,
Each drop would disappear for sure

Inside, the darkest cold void
Resides, forever corroding my soul;
Days float by, but not one man
Possesses the needed skills to cajole
Chaos and desolation away from me
So as to seal this deepening hole.

bear with me, everyone... I am in one of my "dark" moods again (which is too often for my own good).

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<a name="#009"> Unbreakable </a>

Although my spirit you sometimes forsake,
I possess an iron heart which refuses to break

Society holds no tangible powers over me;
My soul roams the world, liberated for eternity

Each day brings an increment in tempered strength,
Giving enough fortitude to continue life at length

Naught in my mind shall allow me to think
Such thoughts of insecurity; never will I sink

In any event, I can adapt and steadily rise
Above the foes for which I am easy to despise

Destiny may play a role in determining a course
Charted by profound strength from an unknown source

Go ahead, attempt to destroy me with your rage;
Your words fail to stun me in my coming of age

I know it may be difficult for you to conceive,
But reality causes the hardhearted to believe...

Knowledge gives more power than meets the eye;
Within, my enlightened spirit shall never die

Remember these words, and make no mistake:
No matter what, I am the one you cannot break.

note: this is to anyone who has ever been broken down by other people...fear not. show them your strength.

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<a name="#010"> Identity </a>

note: I was having an identity crisis when I wrote this (and still am, somewhat)... don't ask, long story.

Who am I, really?
Has anyone ever known?
So many tired lies,
Truths still not shown....

Craving the answers,
My search continues
Through introspection
And other hidden venues

Do I actually exist?
A mind runs wild....
Flesh of my mother,
Or another woman's child?

Is my father mine?
Blood of a different man?
Perhaps it is better
If I don't understand....

Long forfeited love,
Not meant for me to have
Within I weep rivers,
Outside I force a laugh

How could I end up
Society's object to damn
When I still don't know
Just who the hell I am?

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<a name="#011">Untitled </a>

Paint and ink failed to capture
Her flawless, ethereal loveliness;
Effulgent strands of midnight hair
Spilled over her porcelain shoulders,
Rubescent color stained her cheeks,
A smile curved her shimmering lips
While eyes that flash brilliantly
Penetrate the outside spectators
Enthralling many with her form;
Undisputed as a portrait of perfection
But hidden behind the beautiful facade
Lay a multitude of shattered dreams
And trails of long forgotten promises
Because she was raised in a home
That fostered only the greatest affection,
Or so she would coerce us to believe
For happiness is the last of emotions
One could read in her tempestuous gaze
Just a girl fulfilling a deity's role,
None who stare at her chiseled features
Could understand the dark torture within
Always straining hope and patience,
Trying to fulfill such ridiculous standards
As set by her family and all of society;
Weight from the emotional burden grows
Day by day, with no halt in near sight,
Life for her is anything but a breeze
May the misery developed in past years
Filled with tears of pent up frustration
Cease to torment her in later times,
For I know all too well of the sadness
Inhabiting those dark, tearful eyes.

note: this is about me (written in third person). I had read "feed my insanity" by thief of dreams and felt compelled to post this...

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<a name="#012"> Gifts of the Father </a>

He gave me life:
Creating my vessel
From a multitude
Of flashing images;
Then allowing passage
Into the earthly world
With loving parents
Who taught me virtue
And all things right;
Both cherished me

He gave me guidance:
Showing me the way
Whenever I got lost;
Embracing my soul
On those many occasions
I fell into deep despair
But never abandoning
His prodigal child
Regardless of the times
I strayed from my path

He gave me strength:
Instilling courage,
Renewing all faith
Even in desperation
Although life felt
Utterly desolate,
I was never alone
Hope was with me;
Buried deep within
This spirited heart

He gave me love:
Regardless of the way
I handled earthly plights,
His heart was always open
Kind and forgiving,
My great heavenly father
Taught me peaceful patience
And how to survive life
Despite each of my falls,
Graceful hands catch me.

note: you may not agree with my message, but more power to you if you do!

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<a name="#013"> Watch Me Bleed </a>

note: don't think I'm all screwed in the head because I wrote this...even though this is from a personal experience.

I'm sick of hurting
Without any release
Or someone cognizant
How this pain feels;
Perhaps my wishes
Embrace only death

Slice my skin open;
View the teeming flesh
Laying far underneath
And watch me bleed;
Desolation and anguish
Fall to cold concrete

Revere these knives
In the form of words
Too heavy not to hurt;
Cutting away damage
Appears the only way
To undo wounds within

Bruises mar my body,
Symbolic of the ways
Others killed my heart,
Murdered the inner being
Still trapped inside,
Forever in oppression.

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<a name="#014"> Providence's Cradle </a>

What is it, my darling child,
That makes you feel so sad?
You must realize that all life
Is a balance of good and bad

Do you believe you're punished
Because of your many trials?
Tribulations make one stronger
As it forces people to use their wiles

Be happy, little one; try to smile,
For it pains me to see you cry;
Life has been cruel, yes I know,
But you can't possibly want to die

Still you've got so much time left
With experiences and lessons to learn;
Some time during your metamorphosis,
Fortitude will give a lifelong turn

Put your waning faith in my hands
And allow me to carry you home...
I will provide for all necessities
But will never leave you alone.

note: I don't know if this was the best title, but I was writing as a heavenly deity talking to a discouraged person. hope you enjoy this....

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<a name="#015"> To Live Without Air </a>

I would suffocate and lose my breath
If I were to live without air
For your touch brings life to my flesh

I would dehydrate and wither
If I were to live without water
For your love is the blood that flows through me

I would starve and perish
If I were to live without food
For my mind feasts on thoughts of you

I would be forced into oppression
If I were to live without liberty
For you've freed my spirit from bondage

I would walk a spiritless road
If I were to live without faith
For I entrust to you my heart

But life would not be worth living
If I were to live without you
For to my entire being you mean everything.

note: this was one of my earlier poems... I don't know if it's all that great but oh well...

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