It should have made me strong

[Eric]

I know I have not made my mind,
to where it is that I shall go
I'm not sure if I will like it then,
who I have chose to show
Lying here beneath this night,
I feel the breeze upon my face
I open my mouth to speak the words,
But my tongue can't bare the taste
Why has this wind not carried me,
to a place to ground my feet?
Am I cursed to never marry and
live this life with this defeat?
All day I lye here wondering,
why it's alone that I must cry
I fear that in my time to come, alone I'm here to die
I feel the darkness giving in, to the hells I have endured
Its hard to weigh the goods in life
for so little I have cured
Looking past the things I've tried and
things that set me wrong
Of all the lessons that I have learned, its the worst that made me strong
This emptiness that consumes my thought,
guides my mind to blame
As I look into the glass, my reflection shows
just shame.
Begging, pleading, kicking walls,
so angry I've become
I remember when nothing bothered me,
I miss the days of numb.
But going back to who I was, would surely end my days.
I dont think that I can live no more,
engulfed in this malaise

© 2014Eric R. Garcia. All rights reserved
***Poetry Pages Poet of the Month June 2012***

[kimmyjean]

Interesting read....

Love and Peace
KJ