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<div class="content"><span style="color:
#800040"><br /><center><span style="font-weight:
bold">GoddessErika's Archive</span><br /><br
/><ul> <br />Age: 37<br />Sign: Leo<br />Sex: Yes
please<br />Location: Dislocated<br />Occupation: 50% Occupied,
50% Vacant<br />Interests: Yep, I'm interesting!<br />Real
Name: Anarcha (Erika) Basta<br /></ul> <br
/> <br /><table style="border: 1px solid #000; background-color:
#fff; border-collapse: collapse;"><!----><tr><!----><td
style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a href="#top">***The Goddess’ Story***</a></td><!--<br
/> --><td style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a href="#index1">***Between the Linens and the Lines***</a></td><!--<br
/> --><td style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a href="#index2">***Love and Romance***</a></td><!----></tr><!--<br
/>--><tr><!----><td style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a
href="#index3">***The Darker Side of Purgatory***</a></td><!--<br
/> --><td style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a href="#index4">**Senryu, Cinquain & Short
Forms***</a></td><!--<br /> --><td style="border:
1px solid #000;"><a href="#index5">***Poetry In General***</a></td><!----></tr><!--<br
/>--><tr><!----><td style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a
href="#index6">***Lost and Found***</a></td><!--<br
/> --><td style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a href="#index7">***Challenge Entries***</a></td><!--<br
/> --><td style="border: 1px solid #000;"><a href="#index8">***Featured Publications***</a></td><!----></tr><!----></table><br
/><br /><a name="top"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold"><span style="text-decoration: underline">***The
Goddess’ Story***</span></span><br />December 2005</center><br
/><br />Well, let me start by clarifying the name attached to the
posts that you’ve been/will be reading. For you to get an accurate idea of
who I am, I feel it critical that I do so. The prefix “Goddess” was picked up
long ago from man I dated who called himself the “Greek God.” When I adopted
“GoddessErika,” it was merely an attempt to make fun of the title that he had
given himself. In no way, should you perceive it as a reflection of how I
actually see myself. I am not vain or stuck-up, and I definitely don’t
believe that I am any better than you, so please don’t take it personally. Truthfully,
I actually envy most of the "general" population. However,
since we did date for quite a while, the name has since then stuck with me.<br
/><br />Following is a short, (very short) summary of my life… my
oh-so-interesting life, my inspiration, and reason for feeling 32 years older
than I am...<br /><br />During the first few years, I was a
happy, well-off, educated, artistic, free spirited, innocent little girl.
And, thank god for those few years, because without them, I probably wouldn't
have been able to build-up the strength it took to keep me from killing
myself years ago.<br /><br />Fast forward to age 6… when my
happiness crumbled and my stability, now infested with maggots, began to
disintegrate. Why… because my mother decided to marry a raging
alcoholic/cocaine junkie/horribly pathetic gambling addict whose almost
constant displacement issues kept him busy beating, terrorizing, and
belittling both of us whenever the track, the crack, or the Miller-Lite did
him wrong. In short, the next 10 years of my life were spent somewhere
between my violence ridden-poverty stricken-horror filled home, hospitals,
halfway houses, the streets, cheap hotels, and battered women’s shelters. If
you need a visual, picture a house where broken dishes, holes in walls, doors
slammed off their hinges, and blood spatter were about the only permanent
parts of the decorative motif.<br /><br />Amazingly, throughout
it all I was able to keep my head together enough to get a job, buy a car,
graduate from high school, and move on. Of course, I was no angel, but driven
by the desire to escape that Hell, I somehow managed to stay in school, out
of jail and, (other than your typical teenage experimental phase) off of
drugs. Which I’m sure at the time could have been easily mistaken for a
soothingly mind-numbing, even if temporary, solution to my problems.<br
/><br />Fast forward to age 18… Yes, I survived it! Whoo-hoo! Now I
can get on with my life and away from the death that I had been living. Or so
I thought…<br /><br />Later that same year, with all the family
and friends in tow, the guy I was dating decided to propose to me. I said
yes. (Although the voices in my head were screaming “NO!”) I just couldn’t
bear to embarrass him in front of his audience, which was of course his
reasoning behind inviting them in the first place!<br /><br />Now
that I wanted out, and since we already shared an apartment together, my only
way to escape that marriage was to temporarily move back home.(Which given
any normal situation, I'd prefer to die!) But... since the rest of my life
that was at stake, I swallowed my pride and called my mother. Three days
later I find out I'm pregnant. (Now 19)<br /><br />Since I
actually did maintain a grasp on the early childhood morals that I had been
taught, I didn't feel right about seeking an abortion without even telling
the father; but then again, I knew if I did, I was going to behaving that
baby. You see, he was the last survivor of the family name, and he was
supposed to be infertile! So I knew that if I opened my mouth, his whole
damned family would get "miracle baby, pass on the family name”
syndrome and I’d be forced to go through with it. As I’m sure you can figure
out- is exactly what happened, and… there's the story of my son! (Still 19)<br
/><br />With the baby of course, came the marriage that I had
previously rejected! And after nearly 3 years of that agonizing entrapment, I
finally called it quits. He moved out, and about a week later I came home to
his corpse hanging in my bedroom. (Now almost 22/54)<br /><br />With
nothing left to do except to try to raise my son, and come up with a way to
explain all this to him later, I enrolled college and got my degree. Ever
since then, I’ve just rolled with the punches and tried to keep a positive
head on my shoulders. Thankfully, I think I've somewhat achieved that
(considering all of the above)!<br /><br />Now, on to present
day… I have no life, no free time, no family to help out (except 1 teenaged
brother who is willing to babysit here and there so that I can at least
pretend to be 28 once in a while); and I don't qualify for help from our
government due to all of the lazy-ass, perfectly capable, welfare hording
women who don't give a crap about the people who actually need assistance, and
whom remain completely blind to what their continual rape of the system has
done for us! <br /><br />But... never-the-less, I’m here. I'm not
in therapy, not poor (or well off for that matter), and I’m not crazy (ok,
maybe a little)! I’m neither dependent on, nor expectant of the rest of the
world to fix my mistakes, and I’m definitely not your stereotypical textbook
definition of a person reared from an abusive home! <br /><br />I’m
not (and have never been) suicidal, or abusive. I’m not criminally minded,
seeking vengeance, or hateful to the world for what I've been through; but
most importantly, I don't feel sorry for myself. However, I do bear regret
for my son, who sobs uncontrollably at times and wonders why he can’t have a
daddy like the other kids.<br /><br />So, in short, I've been
down the shithole and back but because of that, I am me. At a time, I was
surrounded by failure, but it was that failure that gave me the drive to
succeed. I was shown each of death's many faces, which enabled me to appreciate
almost any life that I would live. I was fed so much negativity that to
practice it myself would positively bore me. I've suffered so much pain, that
it has given me the immunity to those who try to hurt me now. I’ve cheated
death so many times that I've become invincible.<br /><br />I am
a survivor, and though I can’t give my son his father back, I can teach him
to survive as well. That way, when I die, he will need no explanation. He
will find peace in knowing that his mom can finally rest, and that whatever
trials he may be forced to endure, he will survive-because that is what I
raised him to do. <br /><br /><center><hr NOSHADE height=2px></center><br
/><br /><a name="index1"></a><center><span
style="font-weight: bold"><span style="text-decoration: underline">***Between
the Linens and the Lines***</span></span><br /><br
/><a href="#1">Alone</a><br /><a href="#2">Awakening</a><br /><a href="#3">Revealing</a><br /><a href="#4">Naked In Your Arms</a><br /><a
href="#5">Restless</a><br /><a href="#6">Sleepless Nights</a><br /><a href="#7">Shove Me</a><br /><a href="#8">When We Meet Before Sleeping</a><br
/><a href="#9">This Night and Forever</a><br
/><a href="#10">Tucked In</a><br /><a href="#11">Undressing for Work</a><br
/><a href="#12">Let Me Show You</a><br /><a href="#13">Untitled</a><br /><a href="#14">I Ache for Your Taste</a><br
/><a href="#15">Submission Via Clothespin</a></center><br
/><br /><br /><a name="1"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Alone</span> <br /><br />Tonight I lie alone.<br
/>It's a word that follows me-<br />Alone...<br /><br />Most
of my nights here<br />It shadows me-<br />Stalks my every move.<br
/><br />Oh, and alone brings<br />Silence too-<br />You
mustn't forget silence-<br />For the two of them<br />Cannot be<br
/>One without the other.<br /><br />A team they are-<br
/>A good one too,<br />Yet only when<br />You're on their
side.<br /><br />But tonight,<br />I root for the visitors-<br
/>I cheer for you,<br />For us,<br />For our team...<br
/><br />For company and intimacy,<br />For whispered pleasures<br
/>And the moans of ecstasy<br />That still linger here tonight.<br
/><br />Again, we have beaten them-<br />Alone and silence.<br
/>And although I lie in solitude,<br />I am miles from alone...<br
/><br />Images of you,<br />Thoughts of you<br />Keep me
warm<br />And smother my barren body-<br />Just as your tender
lips did<br />Only hours ago.<br /><br />I close my eyes<br
/>And strangely<br />I can see<br />You-<br />Me...<br
/>And you on top of me<br /><br />I can feel you,<br />As
if you were still here<br />Inside me.<br /><br />Alone?<br
/>Not tonight...<br />For I have dreamt you<br />Into my
reality.<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="2"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">Awakening</span><br
/><br />To a new day,<br />We awaken<br />We greet the
morning after silently.<br /><br />For what seems like hours<br
/>We lie,<br />Studying each other.<br /><br />Within
you I see a calm,<br />Much like last night’s calm-<br />A peace
unsurpassed.<br /><br />Sometimes your lips smile playfully<br
/>But mostly you just watch me-<br />Watching you.<br /><br
/>I close my eyes<br />But I wake to find your eyes<br />Still
upon my face,<br />As if forever.<br /><br />Deeper and
deeper,<br />Gaze by gaze,<br />We enter together.<br
/><br />A place beyond other places,<br />A place beyond
bodies.<br />And without even the slightest of touches<br />We
make love to each other.<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /> <a name="3"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Revealing</span> <br /><br />Coax me,
tenderly persuade me<br />In a fleshy knot enslave me.<br />Bend
my thoughts, make me sway<br />In all you sinful, sexy ways.<br
/>Urge me gently plead, implore<br />Take me, make me need you more!<br
/>Press your lips upon my skin<br />Taunt the animal within.<br
/>Whisper words of fantasy<br />Elicit a response in me.<br />Touch
me, taste me through and through<br />Now, let me have my way with you…<br
/><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="4"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">Naked In Your Arms</span><br
/><br />Come inside me<br />Ride me <br />Tie me<br
/>To the bedposts<br />Baby tease me<br />On your knees for me<br
/>Tell me how you want it<br />Taunt me<br />Try and tame me<br
/>Scream my name for me again<br />Fucking taste me<br />Trace
my<br />Contours with your tongue<br />Turn me over<br />Burn
me<br />With your wicked fire<br />Excite me<br />Invite me
to the edge<br />Now command me<br />Demand me<br />To
release<br />Thrust in me<br />Trust me<br />I'm
almost there<br />Yes, baby yes...<br />Elevate me<br />Beyond
ecstasy<br />The take me<br />Wake with me<br />Naked in
your arms. <br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="5"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Restless</span><br /><br />This is what I
meant<br />When I said you were exhausting me…<br />I meant that
without you, I am restless…<br />I am so tired now,<br />Tired of
hurting,<br />Of hoping,<br />Of wanting...<br />Of trying
to resist<br />The urge to control.<br />I am tired of waiting
for you.<br />Of aching for your touch...<br />Tired of this
burning need<br />To feel you deep inside me.<br />To be at your
mercy,<br />Moaning and throbbing-<br />While I plead with you-<br
/>Whimpering out your name<br />As I’m trying to remember to
breathe.<br />Tired of feeling like I have no other choice<br />Except
to be seared by your fire.<br />Like a moth to a porch light,<br
/>I am tired of not being able to resist<br />The beauty hidden
within your fire.<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="6"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">Sleepless Nights</span><br
/><br />As I lie here tonight sleepless as I often am,<br />I
think of you.<br />Picturing your sweet smile and imagining your warm
embrace<br />Somehow eases my restlessness.<br />Reality reminds
me that you are miles away,<br />Yet the love I feel for you brings
your heart to me.<br />I envision your body lying next to me<br
/>A gentle streak of your ever-so-tender fingertips<br />Slowly
trickles down my spine.<br />I close my eyes as my imagination takes
its course.<br />Gradually creeping toward my inner thigh-<br />Your
touch seems too sincere to be imaginary.<br />I feel your caress,<br
/>Your delicate kiss,<br />And the faint trace of your tongue<br
/>Tantalizing at the taste of love.<br />As my yearning increases, I
find myself fondling my breasts.<br />Only to drift into a sullen
slumber<br />In which I will awake to find you at my side-<br />Where
reality begins its deja vu<br />An erotic replica of last night’s
visions. <br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="7"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Shove Me</span><br /><br />Standing there, <br
/>That momentary stare <br />Before the shove <br />I fall
backward <br />In giggles <br />As you look upon <br />With
admiration <br />Like a predator <br />You pounce upon your prey <br
/>I surrender <br />As you weave your fingers <br />One by one
in mine <br />Pin me down into the sheets <br />And softly groom
me <br />With your tongue <br />As if you were tasting me <br
/>For the first time <br />I turn my head <br />To the side <br
/>Tempting you to nibble <br />But you don't take the bait <br
/>You'd rather wait <br />Til I'm on the edge <br />So you can
shove me again <br />Grab me from behind <br />And press your
hands <br />Into my thighs <br />Gentle raising my skirt <br
/>You unbutton my shirt <br />Just tongue and teeth <br />Pausing
to catch a glimpse <br />Of my anxiousness <br />I feel your
nails <br />Scraping at my hips <br />Trying to strip me <br
/>One last time <br />I give a gentle nudge <br />Of
impatience <br />Too eager for your touch <br />To play this game
<br />My efforts met <br />With the warmth and wetness <br
/>That I crave <br />My back arches <br />Whimpers softly
break the silence <br />A heart beat's skip away <br />From
release <br />I gasp for breath <br />And brace myself <br
/>My taste rushes into you <br />All thoughts beyond <br />This
single moment <br />Cease to exist<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="8"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">When We Meet Before Sleeping</span>
<br /><br />On the back of my tongue <br />I taste a faint
trace <br />Of your sweetness <br /><br />I close my eyes <br
/>And try to create you <br />In my mind <br /><br />I
trace my lips with <br />Fingertips still sticky <br />With
release <br /><br />A slow smile <br />Spreads across my
face <br />And trickles down <br /><br />Spreading my
thighs <br />With whimpered sighs <br />The lonely cries of farewell
<br /><br />I plead for you- <br />So need for you <br
/>To enter me <br /><br />I want so badly <br />For you
to feel me <br />From the inside <br /><br />To guide me to
that place <br />Where face to face <br />We get lost in each
other <br /><br />Smothered in crumpled sheets <br />Knuckles
whitened <br />I tighten my grip <br /><br />Slowly you
enter me <br />Paralyzing me <br />Hypnotizing me once more <br
/><br />Slowly tasting me <br />Your voice places me <br
/>Under your spell <br /><br />Tongue gracing my skin <br
/>I bite my lip <br />Try to hold the moment in <br /><br
/>I beg you to take me <br />Make me yours <br />At least for
the moment <br /><br />Enslave me <br />Make me crave you <br
/>Forever <br /><br />Whisper so softly <br />Tell me
you want me <br />To tease you again <br /><br />Grab my
hair <br />And steer me to where <br />I can claim you <br
/><br />A deep breath <br />A shudder <br />I hear you
stutter my name <br /><br />"So beautiful" you
said <br />Gently brushing my cheek <br />One more kiss before we
sleep<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="9"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">This Night and Forever</span><br />(Winner: Erotic
Forum Award: October 1, 2005)<br /><br />I have dreamed my whole
life of this moment, <br />When you take me firmly and caress me, <br
/>Drive me wild with ecstasy. <br /><br />Hold me with a
strength unsurpassed, <br />Kiss me until I willingly submit to your
every move <br />Then, release me gently, to reveal your passion. <br
/><br />Again, you clutch me strongly, take me, <br />And hold
me in an embrace of warmth and love. <br />Send me into an abyss of
sensuality. <br /><br />You pull me back to tease me with
affection, again and again. <br />Making my body ache with desire, <br
/>As you release my sexual passions. <br /><br />I pray it
never ends- the moment and the longing. <br />Here we are, united,
making love to each other- <br />Endless love, our fantasies fulfilled.
<br /><br />Forever our lives are changed by what is now, and I
surrender. <br />I am at your mercy, defenseless from your seduction. <br
/>Exploring each other inside and out, we make our way into ecstasy. <br
/><br />We swirl, and tangle in the actions of love. <br />You
look into me, and stroke me softly, <br />Ever so carefully you move
and moan in sweet anticipation. <br /><br />We come together in
an explosion of ecstasy <br />Gripping each other, gasping in harmony. <br
/><br />Slowly, deeply, rhythmically you enter my deepest thoughts, <br
/>Explore the contours of my soul. <br /><br />Both of us
untamed, as we consume each other. <br />We make love through every
hour of the long still night. <br /><br />Our kisses prolonging,
as the dawn approaches- <br />Our attention undivided. <br
/><br />We study each other for hours in the coldness of night. <br
/>Needing and loving one another- <br />A love beyond imagination. <br
/><br />We kissed as never before, <br />Our lips still
burning from the passion. <br /><br />Our warm wet bodies falling
and rising, <br />Discovering total ecstasy all through the night. <br
/>Loving in endless pleasure, naked and aroused. <br /><br />In
our minds, this moment is never ending <br />It will forever linger in
our thoughts, <br />Making us crazy each time we remember. <br
/><br />This night, and forever, we belong to each other- <br
/>Heart and body, <br />Mind and soul.<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="10"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">Tucked In</span><br
/><br />Hair still wet from the shower <br />The rest would
soon follow <br />Unexpectedly <br /><br />My bones and
body so tired <br />I begin to prepare myself <br />To retire for
the night <br /><br />… Or so I thought <br /><br />…
It was then that I first felt you <br /><br />A touch so subtle <br
/>Yet so intentional <br />It commands my response <br
/><br />Your fingertips <br />Gently pace the length of my
spine <br />And I am at your mercy <br /><br />You know I
am powerless now <br />And like a predator to prey <br />You move
in for the kill <br /><br />Reaching one arm back <br />You
pull my body atop your own <br />Letting skin rest on skin <br
/><br />All the while <br />Your hands continue to roam <br
/>The length of my nakedness <br /><br />Lips firmly filled
with desire <br />Plant themselves upon my own <br />Our tongues
begin to twist and tango <br /><br />Every so often a gentle nip
at the nape <br />Breaks their dance <br />Stunning me in a
momentary rapture <br /><br />You trade me places <br />And
continue to explore <br />All the while leaving goose bumps in your
wake <br /><br />And this pleasure drips so thick <br />That
I lose all control <br />When you place yourself inside <br
/><br />Your lips never leaving me <br />Tasting every sweet
second <br />As if it were your last <br /><br />I guide
your fingers toward my face <br />And teasingly wrap my tongue ‘round
each of them <br />So that I may savor you as well <br /><br
/>Out the corner of my eye <br />I catch the sunrise watching us <br
/>As we fondle our way into tomorrow <br /><br />And though I
wish to never leave this moment <br />Reality outweighs my desires <br
/>And casts her spell of sleep upon me <br /><br />Still
nestled into your skin <br />Held tightly within you, <br />I
close my eyes <br /><br />One final breath of pleasure <br
/>Escapes my lungs as I drift off <br />Tucked in your love like a
blanket<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="11"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Undressing for Work</span><br />(a collaboration by
GoddessErika and Friend_Forever)<br /><br />It’s nine o’clock now
<br />And I must leave again my love <br />As I make my way
across the room to find my clothes <br />I can feel you watching me. <br
/><br />Every part of my body tingles with desire <br />As
your hungry eyes take in my naked figure <br />Slipping into my office
wear… <br />Your arms reach out, pulling me back to bed. <br
/><br />I feel the warmth of your hands upon my skin <br />Melting
me into you <br />Then, with half-hearted effort I try to wriggle free <br
/>Knowing that I can't be late again. <br /><br />Your grip
tightens... pulling me further from my clothes <br />Your lips caress
my pierced belly button <br />As your tongue plays with the stud
earring hidden beneath <br />Struggling to get free… I grasp the
bedpost next to me. <br /><br />But my efforts only tease your
senses <br />Moaning with passion, <br />You put your hand on my
chin <br />And lift my face toward yours <br /><br />You
raise your eyes to mine and summon me to stay <br />“I want to play,”
you say slowly under heavy breath <br />You stretch an arm up toward my
face, placing your fingertips upon my lips <br />I twirl my tongue
round teasingly, and accept your invitation <br /><br />You wrap
me up in your arms, casually kissing my desires alive <br />Then place
my head lovingly upon your pillow <br />”My hair's all messed up”, I
scream in a playful manner <br />Throwing caution to the wind, I remove
my final piece of clothing <br /><br />I can’t help but to
whimper <br />While you take in my nakedness with every extension of
your being <br />As you teasingly nibble every inch, taste me with
tongue <br />Tracing my sweat glistened body, this moment burnt forever
in memory <br /><br />Lost in my own euphoric state <br />I
disregard my (now previous) employment <br />Overpowered by greed’s
physical urges <br />I plead… move faster, give me more <br
/><br />And my wish is your command <br />Rhythmically you
pursue me <br />Our temperatures rising, a heightened climax ignites <br
/>And I am suddenly consumed within the heat of your flame <br
/><br />Your hands move slowly down, grabbing my hips <br />Your
legs nudge mine apart <br />As you hold me, taking me deeper <br
/>Your lips whisper, "I love you" <br /><br
/>Instantly oblivious to all that surrounds <br />My every muscle,
every nerve freezes within me <br />Captivated by the power behind your
words <br />Deafened by their unyielding echo in my mind <br
/><br />I reach up gently brushing your face with my fingers <br
/>Coaxing your gaze to meet my own <br />I search your eyes until I
can see inside you <br />Voice quivering with adoration I manage to
reply, “I love you too.” <br /><br />Your index finger slowly
traces my lips <br />A trail of kisses quickly follows <br />As
you casually bite my neck <br />And play with the curves of my body <br
/><br />After a moment, you climb down and rest your head on the
pillow next to mine <br />As I turn nestling my head upon you, you wrap
your arms round me again <br />I teasingly play with the hairs upon
your chest and listen to your heartbeat<br />The world around me grows
hazy as its rhythm hypnotizes me <br /><br />My eyelids grow
heavy under you spell <br />But I refuse to let sleep consume me <br
/>Fearful that in time, I will awake alone <br />And this dream that
you have given me will end.<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="12"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">Let Me Show You</span><br
/><br />I feel your heartbeat quicken <br />The air thickening
around us <br />Eyes dilating in the darkness <br />Releasing the
narcissist within me- <br />I ache for you to see it too <br
/><br />I take your hand and guide you <br />To that place
inside <br />Where ecstasy resides <br />And pull you deeper <br
/>Into my seduction <br /><br />Feel the suction of my lips <br
/>As they surround you <br />Astound you, <br />Steal your
breath and <br />Drown you in my pleasure<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="13"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Untitled</span><br /><br />You climb inside
me<br />A feeling so euphoric<br />A pleasure so intense<br
/>That I momentarily escape <br />The confines of this world<br
/><br />Methodically you map your course<br />Strategically
pillaging further<br />To discover desires <br />Hidden even
deeper within me<br /><br />As you pause to touch me<br />You
ignite every nerve buried under my skin<br />And like a mild shock<br
/>I feel your energy flowing through me-<br />Pulsing with
electricity<br /><br />Each time you re-enter<br />I feel
the heat from your fire <br />My face rapidly growing warmer<br
/>Beneath your flame<br /><br />Then, just under your breath<br
/>Barely audible<br />I hear you whisper my name<br />And I
know now that you are right there with me<br /><br />Suddenly,
your grip around me tightens <br />Pulling me closer<br />Then,
in flawless unison <br />We both rush to the edge and over<br />Tumbling
aimlessly into our own nirvana<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="14"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">I Ache for Your Taste</span><br
/><br />I ache for your taste<br />Trembling as you enter
deeper<br />Your tongue roaming wild<br />Tangled movements<br
/>Damp sheets<br />Weak knees<br />Fevered flesh<br />My
hungry body<br />Craving primitive penetration<br />Your teeth
touch upon my breasts<br />Tongue slowly teasing nipples<br />Your
hips thrust<br />My body shudders<br />Breath deepens<br />Knuckles
gripping <br />Whitening skin<br />Cries of pleasure escape my
lips<br />Nearly bursting from thirst<br />When finally...<br
/>You finally let me drink<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="15"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Submission Via Clothespin</span><br /><br />Muscles
tighten<br />Vision blurs<br />My tears distorting all light<br
/>That passes through my eyes<br /><br />Instantaneously each
pain <br />That lives within me<br />Every present peril <br
/>That I face <br />Rushes to the surface<br /><br />Furiously<br
/>I blink my eyes<br />Forcing my tears to fall<br />So that I
may see your grinning face<br />More clearly<br /><br />As
my eyes begin to focus<br />I shift my gaze downward<br />Toward
my breasts<br />My jaw drops<br />As eyes widen<br />And I
can't help but to smile<br />At your ingenuity<br /><br />In
a quick pinch<br />Every illness in me procreates<br />And with
no one else around<br />To save me<br />Your hands become<br
/>My only hope<br /><br />And I helplessly surrender<br
/><br />I am at your mercy<br />Knowing that you<br />Are
in complete control<br />Of my pleasure<br />And likewise, my
pain<br /><br />Only you<br />Have the power<br />Only
you<br />Can set me free<br />And be it so,<br />I must
succumb to you<br /><br /><a href="#index1">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><hr NOSHADE height=2px></center><br
/><br /><center><a name="index2"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold"><span style="text-decoration:
underline">***Love and Romance***</span></span><br
/><br /><a href="#16">Fire and Rain</a><br /><a href="#17">Trust In Fear</a><br /><a href="#18">Your Confirmation</a><br /><a
href="#19">Fallen Dreamer</a><br /><a href="#20">Yesterdays</a><br /><a href="#21">The Language of Lovers</a><br
/><a href="#22">My Nights Without You</a><br
/><a href="#23">Homesick</a><br /><a href="#24">Beyond Comprehension</a><br
/><a href="#25">Don't Be Afraid To Dream</a><br
/><a href="#26">Just As</a><br /><a href="#27">Haunting</a><br /><a href="#28">Woven</a><br /><a href="#29">Exhausted Thoughts</a><br
/><a href="#30">That Night</a><br /><a href="#31">I Lie Awake</a><br /><a href="#32">Heavenly</a><br /><a href="#33">Utopia of One</a><br /><a href="#34">Before Our Love</a><br /><a href="#35">Moments</a><br /><a href="#36">Are You Real?</a><br /><a href="#37">The Hand Held Folded</a><br
/><a href="#38">Wishing Well</a><br /><a href="#39">Walk All Over You</a><br /><a
href="#40">Forgotten Garden</a><br /><a href="#41">Even Without My Eyes I Know
(acrostic)</a><br /><a href="#42">Will You Tuck Me In Tonight?</a><br
/><a href="#43">I Told Myself</a><br /><a href="#44">The Perfection That Is Us
(acrostic)</a><br /><a href="#45">The Perfection That Is Us II
(acrostic)</a><br /><a href="#46">In Every Aspect of You</a><br
/><a href="#47">For the Moment</a><br /><a href="#48">Do You Remember?</a><br /><a href="#49">Loverdose</a><br /><a href="#50">Here I Sit</a><br /><a href="#162">Playing With Refrigerator Magnets</a><br
/><a href="#163">Playing With Refrigerator Magnets 2</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="16"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Fire and Rain</span><br /><br />Rain falls <br
/>A steady percussion <br />Of hollow drops <br />On the metal
roof <br />Invoking a dreamy feeling <br />Firelight dances with
the shadows <br />Upon the walls <br />An intimate display <br
/>Pitch crackles <br />As the fire burns hotter <br />My hand
in yours <br />As you pull me to you <br />To the sheepskin rug
beside <br />Your solemn eyes gaze into mine <br />Lips hovering
just a whisper away <br />Electricity flows between us <br />With
an intensity almost visible <br />I sip the wine you poured <br
/>Feeling a steady rush <br />Of sweet and warm <br />Our
bodies so heated <br />As the fires rage a<br />Inside and out <br
/>Your fingers curl around mine <br />Taking the glass <br />As
you lean close <br />To settle your lips <br />Gently on mine <br
/>Your hands tangle in my hair <br />Our kiss deepens <br />As
the rain and fire <br />Sing their duet around us <br />Nothing
else matters <br />Just this moment <br />Just this kiss <br
/>Just you and I<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="17"></a><span
style="font-weight: bold">Trust In Fear</span><br
/><br />Somehow I knew<br />Though I had not grown to know you
yet,<br />I could feel you,<br />A certainty about you,<br
/>One that made me unafraid to fall,<br />Unafraid to close my eyes
and simply let go.<br /><br />Your strength,<br />If not
your gentle grip,<br />Was always there for me,<br />Before even
you could make sense of it.<br /><br />An attraction,<br />A
force drawn so clearly<br />It became translucent,<br />Only I
still felt its power.<br /><br />And with nothing more than my
faith<br />I teeter to the edge<br />And gracefully fall into
you.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="18"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold">Your Confirmation</span><br /><br />The sun
sets just as it rises<br />Day in, day out<br />Yet I never feel
the dark<br />And though the sky tosses raindrops at the street below,<br
/>I cease to be dampened by her attempts.<br /><br />Somehow,
somewhere, someone-<br />Has lit the torch for me-<br />Sheltered
me from the elements.<br /><br />Perhaps it was you-<br />Or
maybe it was me, just wishing it so<br />Regardless I remain protected-<br
/>Wrapped tightly in these arms<br />My security, my sanity confirmed.<br
/><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="19"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Fallen Dreamer</span><br
/><br />People sometimes said<br />She was a dreamer,<br
/>Always tripping over<br />Amorous thoughts.<br /><br
/>She will fall someday<br />They said-<br />Fall hard, and
hurt forever.<br /><br />But high of him,<br />She failed
to heed warning<br />And before too long, she did just that-<br
/>She fell.<br /><br />She tumbled through tunnels<br />Through
night and day,<br />Through time,<br />And out of it.<br
/><br />She choked on whispers<br />Of singing voices-<br
/>And words she had only wished<br />That she could say.<br
/><br />She scaled walls<br />And left ruin<br />Where
secrets once slept.<br /><br />She awoke the One<br />From
sultry slumber-<br />Unrest his silent heart.<br /><br />She
once dreamed she would fall<br />And just before she woke-<br />Just
before impact-<br />He caught her.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="20"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Yesterdays</span><br /><br />Yesterday, you
were my love…<br />My lust,<br />My future,<br />My
foundation.<br /><br />Today, you are unspoken.<br />Today,
words cannot derive a true explanation<br />Of my most intimate
feelings for you.<br />A body,<br />A soul,<br />A heart,<br
/>A love,<br />And an impassible feeling of ultimate pleasure.<br
/><br />You are my world.<br />You provide my air to breathe,<br
/>My water to drink,<br />My food to eat,<br />My bed to
sleep.<br />You are my reason to be.<br /><br />Without
your love<br />I would suffocate,<br />Thirst,<br />Starve,<br
/>And suffer…<br /><br />But with you,<br />I am alive,<br
/>I am well,<br />And I am in love.<br /><br />You are
today,<br />What my yesterdays could only dream of.<br /><br
/><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="21"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Language of Lovers</span><br
/><br />Hush- speak softly<br />For we dare not harm the
silence of the world,<br />Nor taint her children’s ears with lustful
sin.<br /><br />Connect me with your eyes, mind, and body,<br
/>Silently convey your words with touch-<br />Make vocal only the
sounds born of pleasure.<br /><br />For this hour before dawn is
our somber escape,<br />Our hideaway from all that surrounds.<br
/><br />And though the sands move swiftly<br />Through the
hour glass,<br />Our stories told between the flesh of love<br />Speak
of an eternity.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="22"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">My Nights Without You</span><br /><br />The
lateness of the clock ticked so slowly,<br />So endlessly toward
tomorrow<br />My mind played tricks on me<br />Asking me over and
over,<br />“Is that his keys I hear?”<br />Dissolving my hope
each time it asked.<br />“Just yesterday,” I think,<br />“These
arms were wrapped around you.”<br />I seem to take forever to close my
eyes<br />Refusing to let the emptiness beside me<br />Permeate
my nightly thoughts.<br />I wrap myself round your pillow<br />Catching
the scent of your sweetness<br />Each night without you,<br />I
lose myself in the night before,<br />I wander the darkness in hope
that soon<br />You will find me here.<br /><br />True
Story- (Minutes after the completion of this poem, the door opened, and I was
found.)<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="23"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Homesick</span> <br
/><br />The sun rises, sets,<br />Then rises again,<br
/>But time has not even allowed that to happen<br />And already, I
miss you!<br /><br />I sway from exhaustion<br />Yet my
mind refuses to sleep.<br /><br />It would rather think about
you,<br />Write about you,<br />And wait eagerly for your call.<br
/><br />But until then,<br />I’ll keep thinking.<br />Planning
my return<br />As if I were away for years.<br /><br />Monday
will become Friday<br />In all its lateness.<br /><br />We
will lie together naked,<br />Our bodies glowing<br />As shadows
from the candles<br />Dance across us.<br /><br />Our hands
gently<br />Gliding over bare skin.<br /><br />Soft sweet
kisses<br />Trickle down from my neck.<br /><br />In
silence our eyes will meet<br />Exchanging unspoken words.<br
/><br />My fingers will tease your chest,<br />Your face, and
your lips<br />As your arms hold me close.<br /><br />We’ll
both sigh, smile,<br />And then kiss some more.<br /><br />Slowly,
you’ll enter me<br />Pleasure me so gently.<br />Our hips will
rock this way<br />Then that way.<br /><br />We’ll whisper
about ecstasy<br />And how we’ve found it in each other.<br
/><br />Then, amazed at our abilities<br />We’ll lie quietly
embraced<br />And unknowingly drift off to sleep.<br /><br
/>When tomorrow approaches<br />I will awake<br />Still naked
in your arms.<br /><br />And that my love shall be<br />My
final assurance<br />That I am home.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="24"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Beyond Comprehension</span><br /><br />When
an artist’s brush<br />Sweeps across his velvet canvas<br />As
the clock on the wall strikes midnight,<br />And all that is portrayed<br
/>Is the blazing ball of eternity we call sun-<br />It is love.<br
/><br />When a musician can grasp his instrument<br />In a
moment of silence<br />And carry breath-taking tunes for hours-<br
/>Without a script, sheet, or foundational basis-<br />It is love.<br
/><br />When a poet can release her heart<br />On a blank page
of paper<br />And create an image of mind, body, and soul<br />With
nothing but a chiseled piece of graphite<br />And a distant stare-<br
/>It is love.<br /><br />To behold a sunny day<br />In
the darkest of nights,<br />Or to hear a heart singing<br />In
the deadest of silences,<br />Or to gaze into the plainness of a wall<br
/>And visualize you gazing back-<br />Is a magnitude of love beyond
any comprehension.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="25"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Don't Be Afraid To Dream</span><br
/><br />It seems like every minute-<br />Every second<br
/>Passes in wonder.<br />Constantly I find myself searching-<br
/>At loss for even a clue as to how-<br />How can you be so
beautiful,<br />So radiant<br />That all that is not you<br
/>Becomes oblivious,<br />Non-existent in my world?<br />If
you could only feel a fraction of the power<br />Your touch possesses<br
/>Perhaps you wouldn’t think me crazy<br />For what I’m about to
say-<br />Though I feel you must know-<br />Accepting or not,<br
/>You must know<br />That I have been forever impacted<br />By
the way your hands first touched my tender body.<br />Oh the hours of
caress,<br />Of your fingers feathering my spine-<br />So
capturing<br />That I fear that if I move even the slightest muscle-<br
/>I will awaken from your trance.<br />Then slowly,<br />So
gently,<br />You kiss me.<br />Your lips so soft,<br />So
perfect,<br />They intoxicate me-<br />Paralyze me.<br />Again,
I can’t move,<br />For fear that I am dreaming-<br />Afraid to
wake from this euphoric world.<br />Then, as if on cue,<br />My
eyes partially open-<br />And focus-<br />Your face<br />Forces
me into reality.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="26"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Just As</span><br /><br />Just as a stone
cast breaks a silent pond,<br />And as a raindrop breaks a drought,<br
/>You have broken my frown.<br /><br />Just as music creates
melody,<br />And rhyme creates reason,<br />You have created my
thought.<br /><br />Just as a mother nurtures her child,<br
/>And as the sun nurtures the spring,<br />You have nurtured my
dreams.<br /><br />And as I write, please remember,<br />My
smile, my thoughts, and my dreams, are with you.<br /><br /><a
href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="27"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Haunting</span><br
/><br />Tonight I sit in solitude<br />And though alone<br
/>The silence of this place<br />Has been broken.<br />I
strain to hear you<br />Desperately trying to<br />Make sense of
your words.<br />I shake my head<br />Hoping to clear the echoes<br
/>To stop the haunting<br />But you will not cease to exist.<br
/>You wander my mind<br />Tripping over recollections<br />Of
hours we passed earlier<br />Of hours passed so passionately.<br
/>Again I hear your voice-<br />“Baby, what are you doing to me?”<br
/>And I must ask you the same…<br />What are you doing to me-<br
/>And why are you not doing it now?<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="28"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Woven</span><br /><br />Like that of a fine
crafted quilt<br />My emotions have been intricately woven.<br />Each
square a representation<br />Of the individuality,<br />The
beauty,<br />Of you and I, combined<br />To form the final
masterpiece.<br />Its warmth is my gift to you<br />Please,
accept it<br />Cradle it in your arms,<br />Hold me close to your
heart,<br />Let my love blanket you<br />In times of reminisce<br
/>And sweet dreaming slumber.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="29"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Exhausted Thoughts</span><br
/><br />I race against time<br />My mind sprinting to catch
the thoughts<br />But I cannot keep up<br />My lips part<br
/>Though I have already lost the words<br /><br />A minute ago<br
/>I knew exactly what to say<br />How to convey<br />What I so
ache for you to know<br />But again language eludes me<br
/><br />As if perhaps you are not meant to hear me<br />Not
meant to know me,<br />Not meant to have me,<br />As I so deeply
wish you could.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="30"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">That Night</span><br /><br />That night<br
/>This world<br />Was left behind.<br /><br />A new
dimension was born<br />As I clung to you.<br /><br />Our
bodies merged<br />With inseparable strength.<br /><br />Together
our passion<br />Burnt uncontrollably<br />A blaze so bright<br
/>Even the sun could not compare.<br /><br />Every second<br
/>Our closeness grew<br />With an intensity<br />Immeasurable
by words.<br /><br />For the first time<br />My soul fully
opened<br />And yours as well.<br /><br />I felt a truth
between us<br />A pure truth<br />Void of spoken words.<br
/><br />There we were<br />Naked, beautiful<br />Breathless.<br
/><br />That night,<br />We became…<br />Us.<br
/><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="31"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">I Lie Awake</span><br
/><br />I lie awake in my room,<br />But I am not at home.<br
/><br />I am a stranger here<br />With nothing but my pen.<br
/><br />I’ve loved you many times,<br />Yet I only seek you
now.<br /><br />Right now, there is no love,<br />Only ink
and paper.<br /><br />I long to run free with you<br />Once
more.<br /><br />To lose my heart<br />Once again.<br
/><br />For these are the things<br />That made me,<br
/>That drew me to you.<br /><br />These are the things<br
/>I’ve filled my heart with,<br />My soul with.<br /><br
/>How heavy my heart grows<br />With you so far away.<br
/><br />So much noise in my head<br />That I can no longer
hear your voice.<br /><br />Though worry not,<br />I will
find you again.<br /><br />But for now, I’m busy<br />Chasing
down an endless daybreak.<br /><br />So just kiss me in my
thoughts,<br />Let me steady myself in your arms.<br /><br
/>Don’t ask me to be what you need,<br />Just let me exist-<br
/>As I am.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="32"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Heavenly</span><br /><br />We awake- <br
/>A look of calm on each of us. <br />Our peace is soft, <br
/>But tingling with fire- <br />Heavenly.<br /><br
/><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="33"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Utopia of One</span><br
/><br />Heavy breathing<br />Beading condensation<br />On
my skin<br /><br />Subdued<br />Eluded<br />Tracing
you<br />Embracing me within<br /><br />Sedated<br />Triple
rated ecstasy<br />My fantasy<br />You are<br /><br
/>My head so jaded<br />My dreams invaded<br />By you nightly<br
/><br />Long tender kisses<br />Soft whispered wishes<br
/>Of our pleasures<br />To come<br /><br />The two of us<br
/>A Utopia<br />Of one.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="34"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Before Our Love</span><br /><br />In the
darkness of night <br />I rise to begin my day. <br />Memories
flow in the silence <br />Of yesterdays and tomorrows- <br />Which
are fading flowers- <br />Lilacs and royal roses. <br />Sprays of
regret <br />For the might have been <br />And the never will be.
<br />All time is eternally present, <br />All time is
unredeemable. <br />I talk on the phone with you <br />And
imagine those unredeemable days. <br />I hear your voice, <br />And
hear the presence of paradise around me- <br />Saving me. <br />Listening
to you, I am redeemed- <br />Not in time, <br />But out of time. <br
/>Hearing you, <br />A joy of endless moments. <br />In the
golden of your voice <br />I hear the royal roses. <br />Lilac
lust sends a tremor down my spine. <br />I have been captured <br
/>In the hourglass of your soul, <br />Only to be tilted back <br
/>To the days of the unredeemable- <br />To the youth which we once
knew, <br />As I speak of endless moments.<br /><br /><a
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/><br /><center><a name="35"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Moments</span><br /><br
/>The embers burn. <br />As flames rise- <br />A subtle glow
lightens the room. <br />In a silent glance <br />Eyes meet- <br
/>Cool green like emeralds. <br />You smile, <br />And a chill
runs down my spine. <br />My mind, <br />So captured by your
beauty. <br />And inside my head, the record skips... <br
/><br />...I love you... <br />I love you... <br />...I
love you...<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="36"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Are You Real?</span><br />(Winner: Poem of the
Week: June 19, 2005) <br /><br />Your eyes whisper <br />Words
unspoken <br />Thoughts unseen <br />Dreams yet to be delivered <br
/>From reality. <br /><br />Your heartbeat surreal <br
/>So untimely <br />Yet in sync <br />With my world. <br
/><br />Your touch <br />So lucid <br />So gentle <br
/>It’s unreal- <br /><br />Yet I feel you <br />As if
you were… <br /><br />Real that is- <br /><br />Now
all I can do <br />Is wonder… <br /><br />Are you? <br
/><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="37"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Hand Held Folded</span><br
/><br />If I could pull a piece of heaven down <br />I’d tuck
you deep within eternity <br /><br />I’d shield you with my angel
wings <br />Forever lying folded within you <br /><br />Each
evening of forever <br />I’d chase away the shadows while you sleep <br
/><br />I’d summon sunlight to your side <br />And let
darkness never find you <br /><br />I’d hold your body close to
heart <br />And warm you with caressing kisses <br /><br />I’d
lie pressed against your chest <br />And listen to the peace upon your
breath <br /><br />I’d rest quietly next to you and smile <br
/>At the smile that you so deserve <br /><br />At the beauty
that you hold <br />Within your soul <br /><br />And at the
hand held folded <br />Within mine <br /><br />I love you…<br
/><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="38"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Wishing Well</span><br /><br />Standing here
over the wishing well <br />I toss in another token <br />Another
hope that I won’t end up here again tomorrow <br /><br />The
heaviness of my chest <br />Causes me to cough out loud <br />And
I have to force myself just to breathe here without you <br /><br
/>“Forever’s only twenty days,” I try to tell myself <br />But it’s
useless <br />The comfortable just won’t come alone <br />And I
should know that <br /><br />Each night that sleepless comes <br
/>I lie focused on the perfection that is you <br />And I just
simply cannot bear to leave my thoughts <br />So I turn him away <br
/><br />Each day I dream about your face <br />And my world
around me shrinks into the background <br />But I don’t care to be
there anyhow <br />If not with you. <br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="39"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Walk All Over You </span><br
/><br />I climb you. <br />First upward- <br />Then back
down <br /><br />I begin where your hand <br />Lay loosely
open <br />Next to mine <br /><br />Ever so slowly <br
/>I ascend your barren arm <br /><br />Pausing to squeeze
gently <br />At the nape of your neck <br />Before exploring any
further <br /><br />I wait <br />To hear your subtle moan <br
/>Then carry onward <br /><br />Inward- <br />Toward
your spine <br />Transitioning to decline <br /><br />I
bend my fingers <br />Slightly to the right <br />Then walk them
down <br /><br />I pass your wrist <br />With tender
fingertips <br />And begin to lace them <br />One by one into
your own <br /><br />Until the last little finger <br />Finds
its final place- <br />That loosely open space <br />That it
calls home<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="40"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Forgotten Garden</span><br /><br />I buried
you months ago. <br />Out in the backyard, <br />Over there
between the truth and past. <br />In that little patch of garden <br
/>That I like to call forgotten. <br /><br />And that you
were, <br />Until yesterday... <br />When I first discovered <br
/>The little heaps of heartache <br />Strewn about the lawn <br
/><br />Freshly dug deceit and <br />Bits of bitterness <br
/>Litter the landscape <br />(Guess I should have buried you <br
/>A little deeper) <br /><br />Wouldn't be an issue though <br
/>If that damn dog were on a leash! <br />I buried my past to forget
<br />Not for her entertainment- so... <br />Tell that bitch to
go dig in your yard!<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="41"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Even Without My Eyes I Know
(acrostic)</span><br />(Winner: Form in
Poetry Forum Award: December 03, 2005)<br /><br />I saw
you again last night<br />Never mind that you did not see me<br
/><br />Dreams are supposed to be like that<br />Reclusive and
mysterious<br />Each of which you truly are<br />At least in my
mind anyhow<br />Much like a wordless thought<br />Somehow
spoken, yet left unsaid<br /><br />Invisible in my waking hour<br
/><br />So vivid while I sleep<br />Every detail of you
becomes so clear that<br />Even without my eyes- I know that you are
beautiful<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="42"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Will You Tuck Me In Tonight?</span><br />(Winner:
Love and Romance Forum Award: September 11, 2005)<br /><br />Fold
me within your arms <br />And hold my safety <br /><br />Kiss
my goodnights <br />With your wishes of sweet dreams <br /><br
/>Lie with your breath upon my neck <br />As we end another day
together <br /><br />Wake me with the dawn <br />That is
the light of you <br /><br />Fill my mornings <br />With
your sunshine <br /><br />And forever touch my days <br />With
the warmth of your love<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="43"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">I Told Myself</span><br
/><br />I told myself <br />That I would never <br />Love
like that again- <br />Like I once loved you <br /><br />Guess
I was right... <br /><br />I should have known <br />That
kind of thing was irreplaceable, <br />Should have tried a little
harder <br /><br />... But I didn't <br />And so I
lost you <br /><br />Lost myself to a forever unsatisfied- <br
/>A forever without that perfect union <br />That I could only share
with you <br /><br />God, how I wish I could change things <br
/>So that my heart could <br />Love again so perfectly <br
/><br />But I can't- <br />I won't... <br
/><br />Cuz I told myself <br />That I would never <br
/>Lie like that again.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center> <br
/><br /><a name="44"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">The Perfection That Is Us (acrostic)</span><br /> <br
/>Surreal <br />Enrapture <br />Vicarious <br />Elation <br
/>Never-ending <br />Tryst <br />Eternal <br />Euphoria <br
/>Newfound <br /><br />Yearning <br />Evolves <br
/>Again <br />Rejuvenating <br />Serendipity <br
/><br />Intimate <br />Nirvana <br /><br />Transcends
<br />Heightened <br />Euphoria <br /><br />Mysterious
<br />Affinity <br />Kindled <br />Intensely <br />Numinous
<br />Grandeur<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="45"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Perfection That Is Us II
(acrostic)</span><br /> <br />So young, so
naïve- I was<br />Everything you didn’t need. My<br />Virgin
body, my virgin mind would<br />Eventually be our demise.<br />No
hard feelings, I just wasn’t ready<br />To be whatever it was you
needed then<br />Even though I had wanted to <br />Even though I
had tried<br />Naivety took some time to heal <br /><br />Years
passed til we met once more, and<br />Excitedly we jumped right in
again<br />Against the odds- and I was<br />Rediscovered and
re-released <br />So quickly that <br /><br />I abandoned
hope- all hope for our future<br />Never giving it another chance<br
/><br />Til now.<br />How love found us again so<br />Easily,
I’ll never know, but I like to think that<br /><br />Maybe we
were just meant to be- <br />And we just didn’t see it then, so we<br
/>Kept our distance. But,<br />I'm here to tell you that I
see it now.<br />Now I know, I am your other half, and I will never let
you<br />Go again…<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="46"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">In Every Aspect of You</span><br /><br />In a
whisper <br />You are heard by the heart that listens <br
/><br />In passion <br />You are every part of one who dreams <br
/><br />In thought <br />You are the spark that ignites the fire-
<br />An endless blaze within <br /><br />In taste <br
/>You are nature’s sweet honey <br /><br />In sight <br
/>You are my picture perfect <br /><br />In touch <br />You
are the goose bumps that blanket my skin <br /><br />In love <br
/>You are omnipotent <br /><br />In time <br />You are
eternal- <br />You are forever <br /><br />And I will
forever <br />Be in love with you<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="47"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">For the Moment</span><br
/><br />I draw the curtains back <br />And watch the snowfall
in the night <br />Another shiver ripples up my spine <br />And I
feel trapped alone in the coldness <br /><br />In my mind I draw
pictures of your face <br />While staring at the empty space beside me <br
/>And though I am saddened by your absence <br />Just a simple
thought of you brings a smile to my lips <br /><br />In my mind I
speak to you in thought <br />As I shift my gaze back to the falling
snow <br />I proceed to tell you everything I’ve always wanted you to
know <br />But wasn’t bold enough to tell you <br /><br />Chalk
that up to shyness I guess <br />I must confess, it’s a flaw I’ve yet
to overcome <br />But as I think aloud tonight, I am not afraid to
shout <br />For right now, I have no doubt that you will hear me <br
/><br />For the moment, I can admit that these tears are for you <br
/>Yet I refuse to ever let them fall <br />I just can’t bear to part
with those born of my happiness- <br />Of how grateful I am to have you
<br /><br />For the moment, I can tell you how sorry I am <br
/>That I didn’t see you patiently standing there any sooner than I did <br
/>I can tell you how sorry I am that the memories we could’ve shared <br
/>Were never given life in my blindness <br /><br />For the
moment, I can tell you that the love I feel for you is immeasurable- <br
/>So extraordinary, that to try and put it into words would be unfair <br
/>In fact, I’m not sure that I could ever communicate my love for you <br
/>There are simply no words that give sufficient meaning to its entirety <br
/><br />For the moment, I can tell you that when I re-discovered you
<br />I discovered too, that I had reached the end of my journey <br
/>I'd finally found my reason for being- <br />I had
discovered my destiny, and all along it was you.<br /><br /><a
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/><br /><a name="48"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Do You Remember?</span><br /><br />Remember
all the shows we saw, the drives we took <br />Do you remember when you
first held me while I cried? <br />Remember telling me it would be
alright <br />As I let myself fall back into your arms <br />And
back together again <br /><br />Do you remember whispering words
that used to be true <br />Remember saying ‘I love you’ as you looked
into my soul <br />And I so far fallen then <br />Had whispered
unto you the same <br /><br />Do you remember the friends that we
shared? <br />Remember how we didn't have a care outside each other <br
/>How we let childhood to rob us both of sense <br />As if that were
what it was meant to do <br /><br />Remember how we'd put words
into each other’s mouths <br />And complete unspoken sentences <br
/>Because somehow, we just knew each other well enough <br />To
communicate without the use of words <br />Do you remember? <br
/><br />Well... I do. <br /><br />When the day ends and
I retire for the night <br />I’m often found dreaming of those days <br
/>Thankful that much like the stars, <br />Those times are still
only right in front of me <br /><br />And though the memories of
our past <br />Yield dreams seemingly too incredible to surpass, <br
/>I plan to make many more of them <br />So that I may dream of you
again in time <br /><br />So tonight when we retire, <br />We
shall drift to sleep held tightly in each other’s arms <br />The way it
always should have been, <br />The very way it used to be… <br />The
way that I remember.<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="49"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Loverdose</span><br
/><br />Perched at the foot of my bed<br />One foot planted
firmly on the floor<br />To steady the vertigo<br /><br />I
feel my heart race wildly<br />My chest growing tighter with each
breath<br /><br />Thoughts of you escape my mind<br />Intoxicating
every cell within<br /><br />A flood of mismatched emotions<br
/>Spills from every corner of my soul<br />Puddling on the bare cold
tile below<br /><br />Everything within me<br />Fighting
outward<br /><br />Everything so surreal <br />That I stop
to ask myself<br />If maybe I am dying<br /><br />Or
perhaps this is what it feels like<br />To finally be alive.<br
/><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="50"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Here I Sit</span><br /><br />Here I sit<br
/>Beautiful and alone<br />Sweeter than the sweetest candy<br
/>Yet still alone<br /><br />Alone because you've made me long
for something<br />You knew you couldn't give<br />You've made me
yearn for something<br />I was sure I did not need<br />Until you
let me taste you<br /><br />Here I sit<br />Wanting nothing
more than to hold you<br />To feel your touch <br />Inside and
out<br />To laugh with you<br />To make you feel as wanted <br
/>As you truly are<br /><br />Here I sit<br />Knowing
that it is wrong of me<br />To feel this way<br />To want you as
I do<br /><br />I am forced to face the reality<br />That
you are just a dream of mine<br />An illusion of my desires<br />And
like the end of a rainbow<br />You are unattainable<br /><br
/>I am forced to accept <br />That I can never be yours<br />No
matter how beautiful<br />No matter how sweet<br />No matter how
alone<br />I am<br /><br />For I can only be your temporary
solace<br />As you can only be mine<br /><br />So, until
next time my love<br />Here I sit...<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a><br
/><br /><center><a name="162"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Playing With Refrigerator Magnets</span><br
/><br />I promise love<br />Trust<br />Loyalty<br
/>And truth<br />Never to break his heart<br />To not keep
secrets<br />Or pain<br />He is everything I could ever need<br
/>And together, we are beyond perfect<br />He is the most beautiful
soul I know<br />My heart needs nothing else<br />It wants only
him forever<br /><br /><a href="#index2">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="163"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Playing With Refrigerator Magnets 2</span><br
/><br />He makes me fall in love with him<br />Every time he
smiles<br />He is my everything<br />And I am his sugar<br
/>Together, we are beyond perfect<br />And I can't love him enough<br
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style="font-weight: bold"> <span style="text-decoration:
underline">***The Darker Side of Purgatory***</span> </span>
<br /><br /><a href="#51">Death By Default</a><br /><a href="#52">Tick Tock... Tick Tock... In Envy Of The
Clock</a><br /><a href="#53">Drinking At The Edge Of Nowhere</a><br
/><a href="#54">Parallel Intoxication</a><br
/><a href="#55">Forever Dreaming In-Between</a><br
/><a href="#56">Sickened</a><br /><a href="#57">Undone Reality</a><br /><a href="#58">His Storm</a><br /><a href="#59">I Am Nocturnal</a><br /><a href="#60">Eyes Scanning</a><br /><a href="#61">The Coming Of Age</a><br /><a
href="#62">The Day Has Come</a><br /><a href="#63">Runaway Train</a><br /><a href="#64">The Mirror</a><br /><a href="#65">The Exit</a><br /><a href="#66">Already Dead</a><br /><a href="#67">Resistance</a><br /><a href="#68">Second Guessing Sanity</a> <br
/><a href="#69">Existence Filled With Shame</a><br
/><a href="#70">Goodbye My Dear Undying
(acrostic)</a><br /><a href="#71">Sweep You Under</a><br /><a href="#72">Ass Kicking Lessons: 101</a><br
/><a href="#73">On the Shores of Castigation</a><br
/><a href="#74">Thoughts From a Fifth Story Window</a><br
/><a href="#75">Life Among the Lily Pads</a><br
/><a href="#76">Debt to the Mob (a nonet)</a><br
/><a href="#77">Under the Weather (a nonet)</a><br
/><a href="#78">Illegal Tender</a><br /><a href="#79">Bleeding and Alone</a><br
/><a href="#80">Steal a Feel</a><br /><a href="#81">I Died Here Waiting</a><br
/><a href="#82">The Child Unborn</a><br /><a href="#83">I Know You’re There</a><br
/><a href="#84">Whole Again</a><br /><a href="#85">Everyone Has a Breaking Point</a><br
/><a href="#86">Out of Ink</a></center><br /><br
/><a name="51"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Death By Default</span><br /><br />Pain
searing<br />Blood seething-<br />Seeping from every orifice...<br
/>Carefully sharpened claws<br />Tearing,<br />Shredding,<br
/>Peeling away my soul.<br />Soaked in sweat,<br />Fear,<br
/>Tears I never knew<br />That I could cry.<br />You force
yourself<br />Upon me-<br />Penetrate me,<br />Rape me<br
/>Of my world.<br />Reigning,<br />Blood staining,<br />Flaming<br
/>Gates of Hell...<br />Your Brutal<br />Barren hands<br
/>Asphyxiate me,<br />Inebriate me,<br />But refuse<br
/>To let me die.<br />Hollowed<br />And horrified,<br />Wretched<br
/>And writhing.<br />Restrained-<br />Chained to the stakes.<br
/>Pounded-<br />Driven through fists<br />Of rage.<br />Gnashing,<br
/>Slashing,<br />Piercing flesh<br />And grinding bone.<br
/>Your laughter<br />Licking,<br />Sticking,<br />Sickening
my mind.<br />Wilted,<br />Tilted,<br />Guilted little
girl…<br />Driven to,<br />Given to<br />Death by default.<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="52"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Tick Tock... Tick Tock... In Envy Of
The Clock</span><br /><br />I watched the tiny hands of the
clock<br />So graceful,<br />So persistent,<br />So
determined to complete the day.<br />Never resting until the cycle,<br
/>The full circle is complete.<br />I envy whatever makes it tick.<br
/>I ache for an obsession such as that-<br />Always counting the
ways<br />That such a passion<br />Would make my days so complete
as well.<br />Yet no matter how hard I try,<br />I cannot harness
even a fraction of its power.<br />Why I even ponder the possibility<br
/>I do not know.<br />I guess some things just weren’t meant<br
/>To be equal,<br />Not meant to be so round,<br />I guess
some things<br />Are not driven by the now…<br />Or maybe, some
things<br />Simply aren’t made to tick forever.<br /><br /><a
href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="53"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Drinking At the Edge of Nowhere</span><br /><br
/>I can taste it,<br />The bitterest bile reviled.<br />Tempting
the tongue,<br />Lying the sweet slow honey.<br />So slow,<br
/>Dripping my bones.<br />My blood burns so sore<br />While my
thoughtless pleading lips<br />Scream more!<br />Sweet peace,<br
/>An empty release.<br />Forgive my glittering eyes,<br />That
sightless stare-<br />Drinking at the edge of nowhere-<br />And
tasting it,<br />The ashes on my tongue,<br />Soft soothing
whispers in my mind.<br />Steady my hand,<br />My witless heart.<br
/>Still giddy spinning spirals-<br />And when you come find me<br
/>Laughing in the devil’s face,<br />Then please don’t leave me<br
/>Drinking at the edge of nowhere.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="54"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Parallel Intoxication</span><br
/><br />One-Two…<br />I summoned you,<br />Controlling
everything you do.<br /><br />Three-Four…<br />My little
whore,<br />Tease me, please me, give me more.<br /><br />Five-Six…<br
/>The seconds tick,<br />It’s time again to get your fix.<br
/><br />Seven-Eight…<br />Euphoric state,<br />Your mind
no longer can relate.<br /><br />Nine-Ten…<br />Unconscious
Zen,<br />But is it real or just pretend?<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="55"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Forever Dreaming In-Between</span><br /><br
/>Caught between the dark and light<br />A tug of war with wrong and
right<br /><br />I spin and twirl through endless mist<br
/>A downward spiral I can’t resist<br /><br />For I’ve become
the middle man<br />Of halfway points and sinking sands<br
/><br />One moment grief the next one joy<br />The puppet
masters favorite toy<br /><br />From laugh to tear<br />I
love and fear<br /><br />The almost there<br />And nowhere
near<br /><br />From truth to lie, to rumor spread<br />From
birth to life, or death instead<br /><br />Yes, I am where the
pages bind<br />Where truth and fiction intertwine<br /><br
/>I’m demons, angels, Heaven, Hell<br />I’m you, and, me, and them
as well<br /><br />I search for reason within the rhyme<br
/>I search for minutes, hours, time<br /><br />Yet night and
day remain unseen<br />Forever dreaming in-between.<br /><br
/><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="56"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Sickened</span><br
/><br />I can feel it-<br />Somewhere deep within<br />An
illness erupts.<br />Weak and sickened<br />I become.<br />Your
venom permeates my blood<br />Fragments of you<br />Still
piercing<br />After all this time.<br />I always knew<br />You
had a power<br />Over me,<br />Yet I failed to realize<br
/>Its potency-<br />Its toxicity<br />Until the cancer<br
/>Had already spread.<br />Throughout my whole being<br />I
ache,<br />My limbs twitching at the numbness<br />That was once
you.<br />Writhing and dizzy with delirium<br />I wait for death,<br
/>For the you that remains inside<br />To cease its existence<br
/>And leave what little is left<br />Of my heart<br />To beat
to the rhythm<br />Of life-<br />Of my life<br />That you
so nearly<br />Depraved me of.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="57"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Undone Reality</span><br /><br />Now what
dimension am I in?<br />The signs say finish to begin.<br />The
up direction points to down<br />And eyes are ears that hear no sound.<br
/><br />No wonder no one understands<br />The simplest complex
demands<br />Just faces bearing looks of void,<br />A twilight
zone has been employed.<br /><br />Nowhere is where here is now<br
/>I’ve got to turn around somehow!<br />But with the planets out of
line<br />Reasons rhyme is hard to find.<br /><br />Frustration,
rage have been unfurled<br />In this topsy-turvy underworld.<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="58"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">His Storm</span><br
/><br />What was once a gentle breeze<br />Now sends painful
chills all down my spine.<br />Goosebumps blanket my body.<br
/><br />And I can’t help but wonder<br />Why my warm has felt
that he must go.<br /><br />A darkness falls around me<br />As
the tears fall from me-<br />The sunshine so far away now.<br
/><br />But how-<br />He was just here a moment ago.<br
/><br />Helplessly I try to make sense of it<br />But the
storm closes in too quickly.<br />I brace myself for what might happen
next.<br /><br />Will his clouds part?<br />Will his wind
die?<br />Or will I face my tomorrow<br />Dark and sunless<br
/>Still surrounded by this cold and hollow confusion?<br /><br
/><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="59"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">I Am Nocturnal</span><br /><br />I am
nocturnal.<br />In the darkness,<br />My visions clear as day.<br
/><br />But you-<br />You feel the need to shed your light
upon me-<br />To instantly render me immobile<br />And again, I
feel paralyzed.<br /><br />I cringe and squint my eyes<br
/>As I desperately try to focus<br />On something-<br />Anything...<br
/>But in your light,<br />I see nothing.<br /><br />And
you-<br />You only think that you can see me<br />That you can
know me,<br />But your visions are only a mirage-<br />A trick of
your mind<br />And the deafening thoughts within it.<br />I cover
my ears,<br />Trying to stifle the cries within you.<br /><br
/>If only for a moment<br />You could quiet them,<br />And let
yourself listen-<br />Then perhaps you would understand<br />That
many times it is in silence<br />When truth rings its loudest.<br
/><br />But once again<br />You’ve let the sounds of your fear<br
/>Torment you-<br />The sounds of the tainted<br />Befriend
you.<br /><br />But I prefer the quiet<br />And the
darkness-<br />So you go now,<br />Leave me to the shadows.<br
/>Tuck me away<br />Where you once found me-<br />Where I can
again be<br />The shadow,<br />The mystery,<br />That you
will never solve.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="60"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Eyes Scanning</span><br
/><br />Eyes scanning<br />Landing upon my unsuspecting skin.<br
/>Your disapproving gaze pierces my soul,<br />Punctured with
jealousy,<br />Blinded by assumption.<br /><br />You
convict me without fair trial,<br />Sentence me to anguish and
confusion.<br />Reality reaches back<br />Slapping me in the
face.<br /><br />Without witness or defense<br />You
incarcerate me.<br />What happened to our justice?<br />Have you
lost faith in the system?<br /><br />Perhaps that is it…<br
/>Or maybe I am depreciating-<br />Losing value-<br />Raising
questions in your mind.<br /><br />I file for mistrial,<br
/>But I am denied.<br />I scream in frustration,<br />But you
do not hear.<br /><br />My voice is drowned out<br />By
your screaming doubts.<br />And now, a new door has been opened,<br
/>A new system lies beyond it.<br /><br />One where truth
takes a new form<br />And where innocence is determined<br />Not
by fact,<br />But through your eyes<br />(You know they
never lie.)<br /><br />I only wish I could give you mine<br
/>So that you would know,<br />So you would “see” the truth.<br
/>Not as a perception,<br />But as a reality.<br />Our
reality,<br />(Or so it was.)<br /><br />Yet
I fear it has been tainted-<br />Stained by corruption and mistrust.<br
/>For all I have now is my hope.<br />As I lie here restless<br
/>Awaiting my sentence.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="61"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">The Coming Of Age</span><br /><br />Today I
dance, I play, I sing<br />I laugh through life and spread my wings<br
/>I fly through nights and soar through days<br />No wrong or right
within my ways<br /><br />No remorse and no regret<br />For
I don’t know their meanings yet<br />The pain of truth I cannot feel<br
/>I cannot distinguish fake from real<br /><br />Fact or
fiction- who’s to care<br />Nowhere, somewhere, here or there<br
/>Then suddenly my wings were clipped<br />And from my soul my youth
was ripped<br /><br />No longer innocence to blame<br />My
world corrupted, set aflame<br />The ash of who I used to be<br
/>Now blankets everything I see<br /><br />My carefree life
has been erased<br />With problems I am forced to face<br />Like
broken hearts and shattered dreams<br />And what redemption really
means<br /><br />I took for granted all those years<br />The
warnings I chose not to hear<br />So now my child- I’m here to say<br
/>There’s more to life than just today<br /><br />So dance,
and play, and have your fun<br />Just remember time can’t be undone<br
/>The story’s written as you age<br />And life won’t wait to turn
the page.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="62"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Day Has Come</span><br
/><br />Twilight trembles<br />Night has gone<br />Shadows,
dewdrops<br />Rise the dawn<br />Dreams are perished<br />Melted
day<br />Your mind returned<br />Emotions played<br />Another
body<br />Robbed of soul<br />One more puppet<br />Pays the
toll<br />The light, the sun<br />Command your thought<br
/>The midnight mortals’<br />Lesson taught<br /><br
/><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="63"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Runaway Train</span><br /><br />Once again I
have fallen.<br />Not in time,<br />But out of time-<br />Out
of sync with the rest of my world.<br /><br />Just moments ago<br
/>We ran on parallel tracks,<br />Traveled at equal speeds,<br
/>Headed for the same destination-<br />Yet somehow again I’ve been
derailed.<br /><br />Only this time,<br />I can’t cry out
for help,<br />I can’t ask for directions-<br />I can’t even
whisper the thought<br />For fear of another fiery explosion.<br
/><br />No-<br />This time I must tumble down alone-<br
/>Afraid and finally silent-<br />Just myself and my confusion<br
/>And the twisted wreckage<br />Of a once precious cargo.<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="64"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Mirror</span><br
/><br />There are seldom times<br />That I look into the glass<br
/>And really see myself.<br />I am seeing merely a face.<br
/><br />For what I see<br />Is not nearly who I am.<br
/>The mirror only portrays<br />A pretty face<br />With a
painted smile.<br /><br />A young woman,<br />An average
girl,<br />In a common world-<br />One in a world of many.<br
/><br />A kind and carefree creature<br />Laughing her way
through life.<br /><br />If only the reflection were true,<br
/>Maybe we could see more clearly-<br />If the mirror could reflect
the soul<br />Then you would see the real me...<br /><br />Not
a pretty face<br />With a painted smile-<br />But a beaten body<br
/>And a hidden frown.<br /><br />Not a young woman,<br
/>But a child-<br />Who's lost her innocence<br />Aged
well beyond her years.<br /><br />Not an average girl<br />In
a common world,<br />But the poster child of<br />An abnormal
reality.<br /><br />Not one in a world of many,<br />But
alone and empty<br />In a realm that few<br />Are ever cursed to
travel.<br /><br />Not a kind and carefree creature<br />Laughing
her way through life,<br />But a girl so over-burdened by evil<br
/>That she cries almost constantly for her own death.<br /><br
/>These are things even I rarely see-<br />Yet with every breath am
forced feel.<br />For one to understand this pain<br />One must
see my true reflection-<br />Yet the mirror limits you<br />To
only an illusion.<br /><br />You do not have to witness the
battles<br />That I am forced to fight.<br />And though I wish
nothing more<br />Than for you to understand,<br />I choose to
withdraw into the mirror.<br /><br />Hell is no place for the
living,<br />Nor for the innocent,<br />Like yourself.<br
/><br />Yet since I have found my way.<br />I must remain
here-<br />Starring back at you<br />Hiding in my reflection-<br
/>So that you do not find it too.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="65"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">The Exit</span><br /><br />Once surrounded by
all that is green,<br />I now lay shaken.<br />The blackness over
my body consumes me.<br />All is desolate, dry, decayed,<br />All
because of my one misstep<br />My weakness…<br />I search
desperately for a door to carry me,<br />Back to that place in time-<br
/>The place where all was bright,<br />Where the sunlight still held
promise.<br />Finally realizing that the exit is non-existent,<br
/>My soul shall lay in darkness... indefinitely.<br /><br
/><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="66"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Already Dead</span><br
/><br />Serrated hatred<br />Like broken shards of glass<br
/>Your prisms my nightmares<br />Open doors to the past<br />Tortured
and tangled<br />Chained in your cell<br />Unstable unable<br
/>My personal Hell<br />Tainted and tarnished<br />This Rusted
decay<br />One more soul for the stalking<br />One more innocent
prey<br />Another mind bent in bondage<br />Echoing sin<br
/>Screams of the captured<br />Your rapture within<br />Laughing
my last words<br />Through lips bloodstained red<br />“Go ahead-
you can’t kill me”<br />“For I’m already dead”<br /><br
/><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="67"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Resistance</span><br /><br />March, bend,
sway, <br />Do as I say. <br />You are me, <br />I am you- <br
/><br />You say no to conformity, <br />Chastity, <br />Lies
of society. <br /><br />Existence, <br />Persistence. <br
/>Perfection, <br />Affection… <br /><br />More lies! <br
/><br />You lie to me, <br />And I am you- <br />Crack
the mirror.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="68"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Second Guessing Sanity</span><br
/><br />I lean against the cold walls of nowhere<br />Soaked
skin<br />Another shiver from within<br />I pass the time
counting shadows<br />Blackened images of who I’ve never been<br
/>The skies grow darker<br />And I hold my breath<br />Trying
to keep the heat<br />A whisper barely audible<br />Grazes past
my ears<br />I feel a lump form in my throat<br />Fear choked and
frozen<br />I close my eyes<br />Trying to pretend that I’m
unseen<br />Obscene<br />But comforting in thought<br />I
bury my head in my hands<br />Playing dead again<br />Peeking
through the tiny cracks between my fingers<br />I try to catch a
glimpse<br />Of the voice<br />But I see nothing<br />Another
paranoid illusion to blame<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="69"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Existence Filled With Shame</span><br /><br
/>Tears shed as whispers <br />A voice rings in my mind <br />Its
words cut like razors <br />And again, I die inside <br /><br
/>As shadows of yesterdays <br />Slip between the cracks <br
/>The light of what I used to be <br />Slowly dims, then fades to
black <br /><br />Thoughts shot from broken arrows <br />Soar
through reddened skies <br />Your piercing precision <br />Stabbed
its blindness in my eyes <br /><br />As I shed these tainted
tears <br />That drip and bleed your name <br />I drown myself in
memories <br />Of an existence filled with shame<br /><br
/><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="70"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Goodbye My Dear Undying
(acrostic)</span><br /> <br />Moments lost<br
/>Instantly<br />So unjustly your departure<br />So sudden
your absence<br />I feel abandoned<br />Numbed from endless days
of<br />Grieving for you<br /><br />Your words echo<br
/>Over and over in my mind<br />"Undying" you
said, then<br /><br />Solemnly I toss the flowers<br />One
by one upon your hallowed grave<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="71"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Sweep You Under</span><br /><br />There I go
again- <br />Bleeding <br />I thought I was finally free <br
/>Thought you could hurt me no more <br />But I stand corrected <br
/>Just when I thought it was safe <br />To bring order to my life
again <br />I cut myself once more <br />I was only trying to
pick my heart up off the floor <br />Guess it was too soon though <br
/>Unforgiving with steel's coldness <br />Its jagged edge still
sharpened <br />With hate for you <br />So again I pretend <br
/>That all is well <br />Sweep you back under the rug <br />Grab
myself another Band-Aid <br />And hide the hurt once more<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="72"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Ass Kicking Lessons: 101</span><br
/><br />Take those padded gloves off <br />This aint'
no boxing match <br />This is your life little girl <br />It's
time to get your ass whooped <br />Stand up and face it <br />Get
that pretty 'lil face split <br />Let's see how tough
you really are <br />I'll make you spit cheekfuls <br />Of
bloodstained teeth <br />Leave your nearly lifeless body <br />Barely
breathing <br />In the street <br />I tried to tell you <br
/>Not to fuck with me!<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="73"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">On the Shores of Castigation</span><br /><br
/>Every hate ridden word <br />Every objection <br />That
spills from your lips <br />Begins to puddle at my feet <br />I
watch the ripples in disbelief <br />A new one forms <br />With
every sickened curse <br />Submersing my dignity <br />Drowning
my worth <br />In your perverse pools of madness <br />My
trembling hands <br />Desperately search the darkness <br />For
something <br />Anything to cling to <br />But they find nothing <br
/>The waters darken <br />As disgust forces me deeper <br />Suddenly
I feel calm <br />Then just before going under <br />I feel it <br
/>The final blow of degradation <br />To my significance<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="74"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Thoughts From a Fifth Story Window</span><br
/><br />If I told you to erase me tomorrow, <br />Would you? <br
/>If I asked you to replace me, <br />Smash my face on the concrete
below- <br />What then? <br />Would you see to it that I grace
the fall? <br />Would you watch me <br />Waste away shame and
society <br />Deface their pretty sidewalk <br />With my outrage
in outlines <br />Forever traced in white tape<br /><br
/><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="75"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Life Among the Lily Pads</span><br /><br />Sink
or swim- <br />That's how the saying goes. <br />There is no
in-between <br />So what am I to do? <br /><br />I don't
want to die <br />Not yet <br />But they won't let go <br
/>Won't give me the freedom <br />To swim to safety <br
/><br />Each time I try, <br />Their grip tightens <br
/>And I can't break the coils <br />Of this world. <br
/><br />My head barely above water <br />I frantically thrash
about. <br />I scan the shoreline <br />For somebody- <br
/>Anybody, <br />But again, it's no use <br /><br />This
is a lonely lake <br />And now I know why <br />Sink or swim they
say- <br />Or tread water til you die.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="76"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Debt to the Mob
(nonet)</span><br /><br />Two shots- one to
the head and the heart <br />Eyes still wide open in terror <br
/>Screams frozen upon their lips <br />That is how he found them <br
/>After work that day <br />His wife and son <br />The payment
<br />For his <br />Crime<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="77"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Under the Weather (nonet)</span><br /><br />Outside
in the darkness I waited <br />Chilled to the bone and sopping wet <br
/>Dripping hair and falling tears <br />Indistinguishable <br
/>From one another <br />Consuming me <br />Drowning me <br
/>In your <br />Storm<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="78"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Illegal Tender</span><br
/><br />The backward ways of children played <br />Like pawns
upon the streets <br />Like gladiators forced to fight <br />Or
death be their defeat <br /><br />Both bought and sold <br
/>But left untold <br />The stories of these tricks <br />Another
token paid to them <br />So you can get your fix <br /><br
/>With eyes rolled back <br />In pools of black <br />Your
numbness has begun <br />Place one more needle on the track <br
/>Another childhood undone <br /><br />Pay your debt with
innocence <br />We're forced to leave behind <br />As a
trade for your addiction <br />A payment for your line <br
/><br />Intoxicate your hatred <br />For whom you have become <br
/>Once again stare blankly down <br />The narrow barrel of that gun <br
/><br />Only this time... <br /><br />...Pull the
fucking trigger!<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="79"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Bleeding and Alone</span><br /><br />I saw
you today <br />Only for a second- <br />When you walked through
the door <br /><br />...I froze <br /><br />All I
could do was stand there <br />And question the reality of it all <br
/>I wanted so badly to disbelieve <br />What my eyes saw before me <br
/><br />But then it happened- <br />The inevitable exchanging
of a glance <br />Then, in one second <br />I knew that you were
real <br /><br />I knew, because for that one second, <br
/>I felt you again- <br />I felt the love, the pain, the anger... <br
/>I relived my regrets, and your betrayals... <br /><br />Fresh
wounds replaced your scars <br />Old stitches tore away to bleed again <br
/>And every part of me ached unbearably <br />So quickly, I turned
away <br /><br />I couldn't let you see that I still cared <br
/>Couldn't let you see that a moment in your eyes <br />Could still
bring tears to mine <br /><br />Then, when the elevator opened <br
/>I turned to look back once more <br />But you were gone.... <br
/><br />And again I had been left... <br />Bleeding and alone<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="80"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Steal a Feel</span><br
/><br />I feel him trespass again <br />But I simply roll over
<br />And proceed to sleep <br /><br />Hoping that my
turned back <br />Is enough to show <br />That I am not
interested <br /><br />Yet as if in defiance <br />His
hands slide further down <br />And awaken me again <br /><br
/>I simply hide the rage <br />And seek solitary elsewhere <br
/>Hoping the next night will be different <br /><br />But
again <br />I wake to find myself exposed <br />Again, I have
been violated <br /><br />Each night that passes <br />My
desire dies <br />In the awkwardness <br /><br />The
disrespect fuels <br />My mistrust <br />And I find myself trying
to adjust <br /><br />Trying to cover up <br />The bitter
disgust I feel <br />When I am robbed of a sleep uninterrupted<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="81"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">I Died Here Waiting</span><br /><br />And the
silence cut like razors<br />Some inflicting new wounds<br />While
others seek to tear open <br />Those that have scarred over <br
/>So many times before<br /><br />I watch the crimson liquid
fall<br />Forming scarlet letters as it lands<br />My last
desperate attempt <br />To make you hear me<br /><br />Like
a black hole<br />The darkness closes in around me<br />Sucking
everything into its void<br />The only thing escaping it<br />The
eternal nothingness I feel<br /><br />Each second that my skin
grows pale<br />I pray for you to save me<br />Hoping I'll awake
to hear your voice<br />Whispering assurance that this lonely <br
/>Is nothing but a dream<br /><br />With each drop I bleed<br
/>My longing for you grows <br />And I can't help but wonder<br
/>If I'll get another chance <br />To feel your arms fold so
perfectly around me<br /><br />As I watch the hours pass <br
/>I begin to worry that you may not come in time <br />To stop my
bleeding<br />That you may not come in time <br />For me to tell
you that I love you<br />One last time<br /><br />And if I
shall die here <br />Cold, and lonely<br />Dark, and empty<br
/>Silent, and stale<br /><br />Please know that I died here
loving you<br />I died here waiting <br />For you to love me in
return<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="82"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Child Unborn</span><br
/><br />Inside me <br />I feel so much for you<br />but
outside <br />I feel I have so little control <br />Each day that
passes I feel so useless<br />So helpless<br />So afraid that I
may never get the chance to hold you<br />With every passing moment<br
/>My hopes begin to fade <br />Crippling me with the thought<br
/>That I may never get the chance to see your face <br />Or to hear
the sound of your laughter<br />Then suddenly my tears begin to fall<br
/>As I take in the realization<br />That I may never even know your
name<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="83"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">I Know You’re There</span><br /><br />There
you are,<br />Behind my back,<br />Tiptoeing softly,<br />Just
hoping<br />That I don't turn around<br />And catch you.<br
/><br />But little do you know,<br />I already have.<br
/><br />I know you're there,<br />I can feel you-<br />Feel
us<br />As we fade.<br /><br />I know you're there,<br
/>I can hear you-<br />Whispering,<br />Telling her all those
things<br />You thought you'd once told me,<br />But didn't.<br
/><br />Yes, I know you're there,<br />Admitted or not,<br
/>I know.<br /><br />I know because it's there<br />That
I am not.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="84"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Whole Again</span><br
/><br />Release me from<br />This pent up pain and anger<br
/>Bury it beneath me<br />Un-endanger my mind<br />Let go of
these violent obscenities<br />Expel the hate within me<br />Deprave
the death I feel<br />Come steal the poison from my blood<br />Give
me love without loss<br />Show me joy without the pain<br />Deafen
the lies inside me<br />Please help me to become<br />Whole again<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="85"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Everyone Has a Breaking Point</span><br /><br />I'm
broken now<br />My heart lay in pieces at my feet<br />Like a
fetally alcoholic child<br />My mind rocks back and forth<br />Going
nowhere<br />The pains of all your past inflictions <br />Surround
me<br />Suffocating me <br />Til I can breathe no longer <br
/>The present takes its aim <br />With a sniper's precision<br
/>And I fall to my knees<br />Inside this shallow grave<br />Knowing
it's the last time<br />That I will ever <br />Bear your wounds <br
/>As the world around me<br />Quickly loses color<br />One
last smile <br />Parts upon my lips<br />And I surrender
peacefully <br />To life's last thought...<br /><br
/><br />…It's finally over.<br /><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="86"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Out of Ink</span><br
/><br />I put my pen to paper<br />But the words fail to
appear upon it<br />I scribble little circles of confusion<br />Trying
desperately to bleed the ink<br />But still<br />I'm left
with nothing<br />Just a void of whitespace before me<br />Expressionless<br
/>Emotionless<br />My everything <br />Trapped inside me again<br
/><br />Not that it matters though-<br /><br />For even
if I had a way to free my feelings<br />You would simply let the pages
lie here<br />You'd leave my words unread<br />My voice
unheard<br />And I'd be left alone again<br />My soul
broken and useless<br />Just like this shitty pen of mine<br
/><br /><a href="#index3">Back to Index</a><br /><br
/><center><hr NOSHADE height=2px></center><br
/><br /><a name="index4"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold"> <span style="text-decoration: underline">
***Senryu, Cinquain & Short Forms***</span> </span><br
/><br /><a href="#87">Silent Summers</a><br /><a href="#88">Part of Me Dies</a><br /><a href="#89">Life After Death</a><br /><a href="#90">Untitled</a><br /><a href="#91">My Love</a><br /><a href="#92">Suicide Child</a><br /><a href="#93">The Truth</a><br /><a href="#94">A Headache With Your Name</a><br
/><a href="#95">Sex and Chocolate</a><br /><a
href="#96">Drowning In You</a><br /><a href="#97">Another Solitary Night</a><br
/><a href="#98">The “In” Crowd</a><br /><a href="#99">Daydreams</a><br /><a href="#100">Another Dead End (Writer’s
Block)</a><br /><a href="#101">Suffocating Your Name</a><br
/><a href="#102">The Guilty Are Born Again</a><br
/><a href="#103">In Awe (a nonet)</a><br
/><a href="#104">Untitled II</a><br /><a href="#105">A Senryu For Nosh</a><br
/><a href="#106">Head In Your Hands</a><br
/><a href="#107">To Fly Past Time</a><br /><a
href="#108">Hell Breeding Evil (an
abecedarian)</a> <br /><a href="#109">The A-Z of You (an
abecedarian)</a><br /><a href="#110">Untitled III (a senryu)</a><br
/><a href="#111">Empty Heart, Empty Hands (a
nonet)</a><br /><a href="#112">Papercut Love With a Side of Lemons
(a tanka)</a><br /><a href="#113">Seventeen Years (a senryu)</a><br
/><a href="#114">Life Cycles (a senryu)</a><br
/><a href="#115">My Baby Blue (acrostic)</a><br
/><a href="#116">Word of the Day (acrostic)</a><br
/><a href="#117">Your Head Hung in Shame
(senryu)</a><br /><a href="#118">Re-captured (nonet)</a><br
/><a href="#119">Your Wandering Heart
(acrostic)</a><br /><a href="#120">Resurrecting the Evening
(nonet)</a><br /><a href="#121">Consumed By Thought
(acrostic)</a><br /><a href="#122">Taboo You (nonet)</a></center><br
/><br /><br /><a name="87"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Silent Summers</span><br
/><br />Silent summers <br />Hours lingering in thought <br
/>But days won't differ from years <br />And with time comes a
heart's desire<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="88"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Part of Me Dies</span><br
/><br />A chill, a shiver <br />Frozen in these fears again <br
/>Bitterly alone<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="89"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Life After Death</span><br /><br />Immortality
<br />Mysterious, elusive <br />Taunting, teasing, intriguing <br
/>Is there such a thing? <br />Eternity<br /><br /><a
href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="90"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Untitled</span><br
/><br />Baby <br />Sweet, loyal <br />Loving, lying,
leaving <br />What a liar you are! <br />Dog <br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="91"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">My Love</span><br /><br />Your name <br
/>So beautiful <br />It echoes in my dreams <br />And I'll
hear it again tonight <br />My love.<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="92"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Suicide Child</span><br
/><br />Whimpers and whispers <br />Lonely cries for his
father <br />"Why is my dad dead?" <br />And I
fail to answer him. <br />My child of suicide.<br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="93"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">The Truth</span><br /><br />So, you asked for
it... <br />Are you ready to listen? <br />Can you handle it- <br
/>Accept it for what it is? <br />Or will you refuse to hear? <br
/><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br /><br
/><center><a name="94"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">A Headache With Your Name</span><br /><br />Do
you have a point <br />A significance to me? <br />If so, get to
it <br />I can't take your thoughtless words <br />And
constant chatter- Shut Up! <br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="95"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Sex and Chocolate</span><br /><br />Toss me
down again <br />Look deeply into my eyes <br />Curl your hand in
mine <br />Melt me like a candy kiss <br />I can't resist your
sweetness <br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="96"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Drowning In You</span><br
/><br />Passion <br />A crashing wave <br />Rolling,
pounding, power <br />An unforgiving undertow <br />Of love <br
/><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="97"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Another Solitary Night</span><br /><br />Empty
<br />Tossing, turning <br />Another sleepless night <br />My
ache and hollow cease to rest <br />Alone <br /><br /><a
href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="98"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The “In” Crowd</span><br
/><br />Put it on again <br />Deceive the world little girl <br
/>Hide behind your lies <br />The mask a mere illusion <br />Beauty
lives only in truth<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="99"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Daydreams</span><br /><br />My lust <br
/>like a hunger <br />wanting, taunting, teasing, <br />I so
ache for you to fulfill <br />these needs<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="100"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Another Dead End (Writer’s
Block)</span><br /><br />The white so blinding <br
/>Yet I can't help but to stare <br />Into the empty <br
/>I curse the unwritten words <br />Of nothingness before me<br
/><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="101"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Suffocating Your Name</span><br /><br />You
gave me breath, life <br />But then you left me choking <br />On
your hurtful words <br />Your name swelling on my tongue <br />Yet
I can't bear to swallow<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="102"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Guilty Are Born Again</span><br
/><br />I raise the cup high <br />Arms tremble above my head <br
/>My hands slow to tilt <br />I question the dark liquid <br
/>Religion spilling over <br /><br />Splashing upon me <br
/>Baptism without belief <br />Are you too guilty?<br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="103"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">In Awe (nonet)</span><br /><br />In awe- I
watched your shadow dancing <br />The candlelight upon your face <br
/>Mesmerized by your beauty <br />I traced your silhouette <br
/>Placed it in my mind <br />Tucked it away <br />My keepsake <br
/>Dancing <br />Flame<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="104"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Untitled II</span><br
/><br />I hear somebody whispering <br />I thought it was my
name <br />Now it's a sentence without words, <br />Just
a breeze of wondrous sounds.<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="105"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Senryu For Nosh</span><br /><br />In one poem
she said <br />Everything I wanted to... <br />Give me your today
<br /><br />A tribute to the oh so beautiful poem “Give me your
Today” by our beloved Friend_Forever <br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="106"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Head In Your Hands</span><br
/><br />Tears wet with regret <br />His chapter comes to an
end <br />And you're not in it<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="107"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">To Fly Past Time</span><br /><br />Oh wings,
please lift me <br />Carry me above this place <br />Beyond my
sorrow <br />Past the worries of today <br />Give me hope for
tomorrow<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="108"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Hell Breeding Evil
(abecedarian)</span><br /> <br />Another <br
/>Baby’s <br />Cry <br />Drowned out of <br />Existence <br
/>Fragility <br />Given again to <br />Hate's <br
/>Incubation <br />Jeopardize another life <br />Kill another
soul with <br />Lack of <br />Morals <br />Nurture the <br
/>Oblivion <br />Partake in the <br />Quest of <br />Reliving
the <br />Sin <br />Trapped inside <br />Unilateral lies <br
/>Vortex of brimstone <br />Wastelands you call home so <br />Xerophilous
<br />Your Torrid <br />Zone<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="109"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">The A-Z of You (abecedarian)</span><br /> <br
/>Alluring, <br />Breathtaking, <br />Captivating, <br
/>Delectable, <br />Enthralling,<br />Flirtatious,<br />Gripping,<br
/>Heavenly,<br />Irresistible,<br />Jolting,<br />Kind,<br
/>Luscious,<br />Magical,<br />Near-perfect,<br />Oracular,<br
/>Phenomenal,<br />Quixotic,<br />Rapturous,<br />Seductive,<br
/>Tantalizing, <br />Unparalleled,<br />Vivacious,<br />Winsome,<br
/>Xenodochial,<br />Yearned,<br />Zealous.<br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="110"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Untitled III (senryu)</span><br
/><br />Choose your love wisely <br />The pains of regret can
hurt <br />For eternity<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="111"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Empty Heart, Empty Hands (nonet)</span><br /><br
/>There was a time when I once held you <br />Right here in the palm
of my hand <br />Yet somehow I let you slip <br />Right between
my fingers <br />Now I just stare at <br />The emptiness <br
/>And wonder <br />Where you've <br />Gone<br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="112"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Papercut Love With a Side of Lemons
(tanka)</span><br /><br />Like a papercut <br
/>So swift and unexpected <br />My heart sliced in two <br />And
then you return again <br />Pouring acid on my wounds<br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="113"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Seventeen Years (senryu)</span><br /><br />Its
been seventeen years since <br />We shared our first kiss <br />And
baby, I still love you.<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="114"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Life Cycles (senryu)</span><br
/><br />Trials and errors <br />Mistakes made and lessons
learned <br />Life, in the making<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center> <br
/><br /><a name="115"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">My Baby Blue (acrostic)</span><br /><br />Beauty
<br />Lost <br />Unwillingly <br />Erased in <br
/><br />Blue <br />A reflection <br />Born unto <br
/>You<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="116"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Word of the Day
(acrostic)</span><br /><br />Madness
consumes my<br />Innermost thoughts and I feel<br />Sickened by
the world<br />Around me<br />Nauseated at the conformity<br
/>That permeates our<br />Human race<br />Repulsed at the very
existence of life<br />Obfuscated at the idiocy that radiates from
these<br />Pathetical beings <br />In constant denial that I too
am a <br />Creature that must walk among them<br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="117"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Your Head Hung in Shame (senryu)</span><br /><br
/>You won't look at me <br />Fearing that I'll discover <br />The
truth shining through<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="118"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Re-captured (nonet)</span><br
/><br />You tore down my walls and brought me pain<br />Left
poison burning in my veins<br />Led me to my own demise<br />Corrupted
me with lies<br />And now I'm broken<br />A hollow shell<br
/>Imprisoned<br />In this<br />Hell<br /><br
/><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="119"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Your Wandering Heart (acrostic)</span><br /><br
/>Impulse driven irresponsibility<br />Numbs the heart while<br
/>Fidelity falls victim to<br />Illicit behavior <br />Deviance
replaces a love<br />Ever true.<br />Loyalty dissolves<br
/>Into the distance and now,<br />Trust no longer belongs to<br
/>You<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="120"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Resurrecting the Evening
(nonet)</span><br /><br />Solar powered
stars cast light above<br />As memories drift so calmly<br />In
the Arizona night<br />Two souls reminiscing<br />Traveling
backward<br />Hoping to catch<br />One more glimpse<br />Of
times <br />Past<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="121"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Consumed By Thought (acrostic)</span><br /><br
/>Maliciously you stalk your prey<br />Intentionally seeking out
your target<br />Acknowledging nothing in your way<br /><br
/>Obviously you hold no moralistic value<br />Nor are you concerned
with consequence<br /><br />Methodically you chose your victim<br
/>Yielding no regard for repercussion<br /><br />Mistakenly he
gave into your seduction <br />Inexcusably he surrendered to your will<br
/>Nefariously he committed to your sin <br />Destroying what was
once the greatest love he ever knew<br /><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="122"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Taboo You (nonet)</span><br
/><br />Like the fruit of the forbidden tree<br />I
dangerously crave your taste<br />My mouth waters at the thought<br
/>Of my lips upon you<br />But I cannot reach<br />That far
above<br />And so I<br />Hunger<br />Still<br
/><br /><a href="#index4">Back to Index</a><br
/><br /><center><hr NOSHADE height=2px></center><br
/><br /><a name="index5"></a><span style="font-weight:
bold"> <span style="text-decoration: underline">
***Poetry In General***</span> </span><br /><br
/><a href="#123">Arizona's Midnight</a><br
/><a href="#124">A Moment In Time</a><br /><a
href="#125">Silence</a><br /><a href="#126">Love- His Silent Ways</a><br
/><a href="#127">Many Thoughts... Many Roads</a><br
/><a href="#128">A Dove Namedd Harmony</a><br
/><a href="#129">Thoughts From A Bowl Buried Deep In My
Fridge</a><br /><a href="#130">His Daisy</a><br /><a href="#131">Awake Is When I Tend To Dream</a><br
/><a href="#132">The Wanderer</a><br /><a href="#133">Hearing With My Eyes</a><br
/><a href="#134">Confusion For The Masses</a><br
/><a href="#135">Sitting Inside a Window of Confusion</a><br
/><a href="#136">Nobody Understands</a><br
/><a href="#137">Dreamkeeper</a><br /><a href="#138">Unseen Savior</a><br /><a href="#139">Always Too Late</a><br /><a href="#140">Hors d'Oeuvres</a><br
/><a href="#141">Reflections in Photographs</a><br
/><a href="#142">Circumstance Dances</a><br
/><a href="#143">All of Us</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="123"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Arizona's Midnight</span><br /><br />It’s so
quiet here without you<br />So dark, and so endless,<br />And
though the sky above<br />Appears to be cooled by the night<br />Her
fiery twilight still very much remains-<br />Hidden among the stars,<br
/>For this is Arizona’s midnight.<br />I lie tucked beneath her sky<br
/>Patiently awaiting the sun,<br />Yet once again<br />The
dawn eludes me.<br />What if forever never comes-<br />Never
delivers you into my arms?<br />What will I do then?<br />Will
the sun ever rise for me again,<br />Or will I disappear into the
darkness-<br />Into the void of Arizona’s midnight?<br /><br
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/><br /><center><a name="124"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">A Moment In Time</span><br
/><br />Come sail with me-<br />Sail the Sea of Serenity.<br
/>Let the wishing wind cleanse your face<br />And glide on waters
made of rainbows…<br />A voyage made for us.<br />Let time become
irrelevant.<br />Our destination unknown,<br />But innocence
directed.<br />The moonlight is our guidance<br />As we sit and
speak of cherished moments.<br />Sunrise our reality,<br />Yet
our voyage continues on<br />Until our wishing wind ceases on our sail.<br
/>Then, we glide through the waters<br />Until once again<br
/>We catch the rainbow.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="125"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Silence</span><br /><br />She varies in such
subtle ways.<br />At times she can be one’s only link to the sane-<br
/>Others, she is your ticket to institution.<br /><br />In
solitude she sees you watching-<br />Waiting for the comfort of
another.<br /><br />In chaos, she runs away-<br />Thriving
on your stress.<br /><br />She plays the game to win-<br />And
to NEVER lose.<br /><br />Even as we speak,<br />She counts
her cards<br /><br />Longing for your voice<br />The
silence deafens me<br /><br />And you long for mine as well<br
/><br />But my lips are sealed-<br />Condemned by silence<br
/><br />And so we sit like pawns<br />Questioning why-<br
/><br />Too afraid to break her,<br />Too proud to make her
bend<br /><br />But instead we choose to feed her<br />With
our evil thoughts<br /><br />We blame each other,<br />Caught
in a stalemate<br /><br />We are both forced to resign,<br
/>And again we’ve let silence win the game.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="126"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Love- His Silent Ways</span><br
/><br />Often times I find myself asking why-<br />Why does he
keep coming?<br />Why can’t he learn<br />That I am not ready for
his challenge?<br /><br />When he comes to me,<br />I see
only him-<br />I do not see the whole.<br /><br />I am
blinded by the intense satisfaction-<br />The gratification…<br
/><br />And though I’ve met him<br />Many times before,<br
/>I become amnesic.<br />I recall,<br />But seldom do I think-<br
/><br />For if I could,<br />I would remember the pain-<br
/>The demands-<br />The expectations.<br /><br />I am
deceived by his passion-<br />And him by mine.<br />But as
always,<br />The truth unfolds.<br /><br />He holds his
hands out to me-<br />Yet not for me to grasp,<br />But for him
to take.<br />Then, one by one he steals…<br /><br />First
my strength-<br />Making me weak with passiveness.<br /><br
/>Then, my judgment-<br />So the formerly unacceptable becomes the
O.k.<br /><br />He robs me of reason-<br />So I do not
notice my mistakes-<br />Nor will I see his.<br /><br />Afterwards
his hands-<br />The hands I trusted<br />Withdraw back into his
chest-<br />Clutching all the powers that once were my own.<br
/><br />With subtle little words and smiles<br />He leads me
to believe<br />He will return them<br />As our time together
grows.<br /><br />But again, just as before,<br />He turns
and runs away-<br />Laughing…<br />Knowing he has once again
defeated me.<br /><br />For his charm,<br />His passion,<br
/>His portrayal of sincerity…<br /><br />Shall continue to
remain a challenge<br />That I will blindly accept-<br />And
continue to lose<br />Until my powers are seized from his clutches.<br
/><br />Then,<br />And only then,<br />Will I know that
I have found the one whom I wish to die with.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="127"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Many Thoughts... Many Roads</span><br /><br
/>Wake up my child!<br /><br />You’ve wandered from the path<br
/>Yet once again<br />Avoid the thick brush<br />For it hides
the truth<br />And misguides your train of thought<br /><br
/>Wake up!<br /><br />Open your eyes before sadness<br
/>Swells them shut again!<br />He is not like you<br />Though
your heat wishes so<br /><br />He is a nomad-<br />Content
with many roads…<br />Each familiar,<br />Each equally as
satisfying as the last<br /><br />Though you feel your path<br
/>May be the way for him,<br />It is not.<br />For you two walk
separately-<br />And always will.<br /><br />Do not force
his feet<br />To walk with yours,<br />For you will only make him<br
/>Choose the other road.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="128"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">A Dove Named Harmony</span><br
/><br />Harmony lifts her wings,<br />Calling to me…<br
/>Fly away-<br />Soar through the heathers of lust.<br />Fly
above and beyond.<br />Let your emotions glide<br />Though the
whispering cedars.<br />Twisting,<br />Turning,<br />Sailing…<br
/>Grasped within her claw-<br />Riding the lone dove<br />Through
the wilderness.<br />Over waterfalls and valleys,<br />Sunsets in
the distance.<br />Soaring,<br />Floating,<br />Sailing-<br
/>Harmony and me.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="129"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Thoughts From A Bowl Buried Deep In My Fridge</span><br
/><br />Spoiled rotten<br />Forgotten one<br />Tucked
away<br />Behind closed doors of darkness<br />I condensate<br
/>Rejuvenate<br />Procreate some more<br /><br />This
make-shift arctic wasteland<br />Incubates my spores<br />The
wretched stench of my decay<br />Strengthens more and more<br
/><br />Watering eyes<br />Luring flies...<br />'Til one
day<br />Thrown away<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="130"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">His Daisy</span><br
/><br />It is dying<br />But it is beautiful.<br />I am
dying-<br />Its beauty sustains me.<br />Is curled withered hands<br
/>Hold up my soul.<br />As my hands could give it water,<br />Life.<br
/>But I just lie there,<br />And watch it die.<br /><br /><a
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/><br /><a name="131"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Awake Is When I Tend To Dream</span><br /><br
/>Awake is when<br />I tend to dream,<br />My eyes wide shut<br
/>Yet still they see<br /><br />Drowned in haze<br />I
squint and stare<br />The fog so thick-<br />I shouldn’t dare<br
/><br />Then slowly back<br />I begin to walk<br />Each
step rewinds<br />The chiming clock<br /><br />And when I
finally<br />Reach my bed,<br />Pull back the sheets<br />And
rest my head<br /><br />I will lie here<br />Once again<br
/>As my real and surreal<br />Mix and blend<br /><br />Again
I’ve fallen<br />Into fates hand<br />Her sleepless dreams-<br
/>And nowhere lands<br /><br />Again I pray<br />For
doubts to cease<br />For my mental wars<br />To rest in peace<br
/><br />But for now, my love<br />Please keep in mind-<br
/>It “truth” is what<br />I need to find<br /><br />First
all illusions<br />Must be erased<br />With truths, your lies<br
/>Must be replaced.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="132"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">The Wanderer</span><br
/><br />A wanderer-<br />She strides.<br />Every so
often<br />She kneels down,<br />Grasping yet one more memory<br
/>Carefully placing it<br />In the burlap sack<br />Which
travels with her.<br /><br />As day turns to night<br />She
grows weary<br />And placing the sack at her side<br />She lies
down upon the earth.<br />Greeting the rest and restoration<br />That
shall carry her journey<br />Well into tomorrow.<br /><br
/>Soon, the sun rises<br />Awakening the wanderer<br />With
rays of morning warmth.<br />Preparing herself to travel on<br />She
stands,<br />Reaching for her burlap sack-<br />But it is gone!<br
/><br />Someone has stolen<br />All the precious contents<br
/>Of her past!<br />Falling to the ground in tears<br />She
wonders,<br />How anyone could be so cruel<br />As to snatch away<br
/>Such a treasured memoir<br />Of her heart?<br /><br />But
after much dismay and sorrow<br />She rises again<br />Realizing
the worst is over-<br />And that even though<br />Given one life,<br
/>She is given many roads<br />To travel upon.<br /><br
/>Turning east<br />She prepares herself<br />To travel a new
direction<br />But as she turns,<br />She spots a new sack.<br
/>Made not of burlap<br />But of a beautiful<br />Gold colored
cloth.<br /><br />She picks it up.<br />With much
anticipation<br />And gratefulness<br />She begins to walk toward
the sun,<br />Starting a new journey.<br />One much more pleasing<br
/>Than the last.<br /><br />She kneels down,<br />Only
this time<br />Instead of a stone-<br />She grabs a beautiful
flower<br />And places it in her sack.<br />Thinking to herself<br
/>She smiles<br />Pleased that now,<br />The weight she will
bear<br />Will be much lighter,<br />And so shall it be<br
/>Less complex,<br />A better representative of her.<br
/><br />And as she stood to walk again<br />She realized,<br
/>That her new-found flower<br />Means more to her<br />Than
all the contents<br />Of her burlap sack-<br />Combined.<br
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/><br /><a name="133"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Hearing With My Eyes</span><br /><br />The
language of nature has a strange way<br />Of expressing realism to
those who have the gift<br />Of hearing with their eyes.<br />To
sit and watch a tree in autumn<br />For us, is like listening to an old
love song<br />Filled with memories is for you.<br />At one time,
that tree was full of life-<br />Green leaves,<br />Blossoming
buds,<br />A whole, beautiful tree.<br />Come fall, the leaves
change color,<br />Decaying slowly,<br />Yet even more beautiful
to look at-<br />A memory forming in the mind of life<br />Is
always beautiful to watch.<br />Then, as winter approaches,<br />The
leaves begin to fall.<br />One by one,<br />Each memory is
plucked from the mind<br />And carried by the wind<br />To a
place more distant and undefined.<br />Soon, the tree is left naked in
the cold-<br />Each old friend,<br />Each first time,<br />Each
kiss,<br />Left to decay in the dirt we call the body.<br />Yet
we say to you…<br />Don’t despair-<br />For old is always
replaced with new<br />Or rejuvenated through the body and mind<br
/>To grow again-<br />To be remembered when you least expect it.<br
/>And soon enough, the tree again is green,<br />New buds have
blossomed,<br />And a smile rests on the faces of those who have the
gift<br />Of hearing with their eyes.<br />The cycle continues
each year<br />To ensure that the mind of life is always full<br
/>Of precious joy and sweet memory.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="134"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Confusion For The Masses</span><br
/><br />Through life<br />We stumble,<br />For even if
we did stop<br />There are no directions to ask for-<br />No maps
to follow.<br /><br />We look for yesterday,<br />Last
week,<br />Or any sign of a familiar path<br />But even our
footsteps disappear<br />As other people pass without a plan.<br
/><br />The world keeps trudging on<br />Day in, Day out<br
/>But where is it going?<br /><br />No one sees the end,<br
/>No one knows where it hides-<br />Or why.<br />Yet we
proceed<br />To our secret destination<br />Hoping someday<br
/>The path will reveal itself.<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="135"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Sitting Inside a Window of Confusion</span><br
/><br />Sitting inside a window of confusion <br />Blanketing
my bare flesh with goose bumps and shivers <br />All alone with my
alone thoughts <br />Slipping into unconscious delirium <br />Reality
sleeps next to me <br />His head dents the goose down pillow <br
/>I hear him breathe <br />But I dare not wake him <br />For
fear of knowing things <br /><br />Sitting inside a window of
confusion <br />I look out upon the newly born spring <br />Green
leaves and children’s cream colored skin <br />Red and purple flowers <br
/>In the meadow <br />Lovers gently caress one another <br />Longing
grows deeper and further into me <br />I want to run and laugh; I want
to sing and dance <br />But I dare not leave my windowsill <br />For
fear of hay-fever <br /><br />Sitting inside a window of
confusion <br />Twilight enters the deepening sky <br />Darkness
begins its journey over the land <br />My tea has grown cold in wanting
for the night <br />I mindlessly sip the cold creamy liquid anyway <br
/>How long I wonder, <br />How long may I trap away my desire <br
/>Shut it up and lock it away in that faraway place? <br />How long
before the sun will rise just for me again? <br />But I dare not think
such thoughts <br />For fear of waking Reality<br /><br
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/><br /><center><a name="136"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Nobody Understands</span><br
/><br />Why did you do it? <br />Hidden logic. <br />What
was going through your head? <br />Cooled personality. <br />Why
do you have friends like them? <br />Teenage ideology. <br />50
miles through <br />Snow- <br />Hail- <br />Sleet- <br
/>Barefoot to a one room school. <br />So what. <br />10 feet
to my bus stop- <br />Though a gang war- <br />3 riots- <br
/>Past a terrorist or two- <br />4 letter words- <br />And
senseless violence. <br />Big deal. <br />There is a logic, <br
/>But maybe I can’t tell you. <br />Maybe fear prevents me. <br
/>If so, don’t ask me more <br />Because the answer won’t be in my
thoughts. <br />Times change. <br />Don’t even try to understand.<br
/><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="137"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Dreamkeeper</span><br /><br />Curtains wave
across the foot of the bed<br />And I feel a faint chill run up my
spine<br />Like invisible finger tips upon sleeping skin<br
/><br />The shadows shift in the moonlight<br />Projecting
nocturnal silhouettes<br />Translucent yet lucid, on the wall<br
/><br />An eerie comfort tiptoes toward me<br />Unseen in the
dim light<br />But somehow familiar nonetheless<br /><br />The
curtains breathe outward again<br />And invite the night to enter<br
/>Once more, the crisp air brushes by<br /><br />Rolling onto
my side<br />I scan the room trying to make out<br />The ever
changing shape of the shadows<br /><br />Then suddenly, through
the corner of my eye<br />I see your face- smiling back at me<br
/>Watching over my dreams, as you always do<br /><br />The
wind passes along one last whisper<br />Pauses to leave its kisses on
my cheek<br />Then silently escapes into the darkness<br /><br
/>Flipping over, I return to my dreams<br />With skin smoothed and
goose bumps gone<br />My chills warmed over, and your subtle smile in
my heart<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="138"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Unseen Savior</span><br
/><br />I walk with my hands in my pockets <br />Kicking up
pebbles <br />Alone again on Rebels Road <br /><br />A
silence familiar <br />Breaks in the distance <br />As your
footsteps meet the ground <br /><br />"Is someone
there" I shout <br />"Come out, come out <br />Wherever
you are" <br /><br />But I hear nothing <br />Only
singing echoes <br />So I continue on <br /><br />I shrug
it off <br />As no big deal <br />Yet I can feel your presence <br
/><br />A certain safety <br />Washing over me <br />Defending
my existence <br /><br />Every path I beat <br />You
loyally follow <br />Every tomorrow you are there <br /><br
/>Dearest angel <br />I want to thank you <br />For guiding my
way <br /><br />I pray that this finds you <br />Wherever
you are <br /><br />I unfold my fist <br />And blow a kiss
into the wind<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="139"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Always Too Late</span> <br /><br />She walks
in the door <br />Looking for trouble- <br /><br />Not
thinking <br />To look behind her. <br /><br />At her
ankles, lies a shapeless shadow <br />Like a kitten or faithful pup. <br
/><br />Her trouble is beside her <br />But instead she looks
straight ahead <br /><br />The problem lying at her heels not
obvious enough <br />To demand her attention <br /><br />And…
as always, <br />She’ll ignore it <br />Until it trips her.<br
/><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="140"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Hors d'Oeuvres </span><br
/><br />**Don't ask me why, but I was just looking at the
word hors d'oeuvres and it made me think of whores galore and this is
the aftermath of that thought...** <br /><br />You lie there <br
/>In the palm of one's hand <br />On display for all to
admire <br />They all ooh and ahh <br />At how pretty you look <br
/>As they each take a piece of you, <br />A little sample to taste <br
/>But that is all you are to them- <br />Just a pretty snack to chew
on <br />Then, once washed down <br />With a sip of champagne <br
/>You are forgotten<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="141"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Reflections in Photographs</span><br /><br />Someday,
time will fade the memories <br />Blending them together as it bends <br
/>Soon, the days will become years <br />And the details will
unknowingly be forgotten <br /><br />But you will forever remain
unchanged <br />Always smiling back at me, <br />As you were then
<br /><br />Old "what's her name" and
"that one guy" <br />Will have disappeared into the
background <br />With the others <br /><br />And though the
pages have begun to curl <br />And the colors don't quite shine like
yesterdays <br />That sparkle still remains in your eyes <br
/><br />While I reminisce in the years past <br />My thoughts
escape under my breath... <br />"It was always you" <br
/><br />Shyly, I look up <br />Half hoping you heard me yet, <br
/>Half scared to death that you didn't <br /><br />But the
look on your face <br />Clearly showed that you had <br />So
quickly, I shift my gaze back to the photograph <br /><br />I
hang my head <br />Letting my hair sweep across my face <br />Hoping
it will hide my fear <br /><br />Slowly, I feel you brush it back
<br />Tucking it gently behind my ear <br />I draw my gaze upward
<br /><br />Just in time to catch a glimpse <br />Of that
familiar sparkle <br />In the camera's blinding flash <br
/><br />Just in time to catch <br />Another memory of us <br
/>Fused in the reflection of a photograph<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><center><a name="142"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold">Circumstance Dances</span><br
/><br />It's like falling behind when you're one
step ahead <br />Or a sleepless dream inside your head <br
/><br />Like the freedom of a prison cell <br />It's a
whisper trapped inside a yell <br /><br />Yes, life is seldom
what it seems <br />Like a one-man co-ed soccer team <br /><br
/>It's a hit of pleasure laced with pain <br />In a
cloudless sky's torrential rain <br /><br />Like the
fancy flight of fresh clipped wings <br />It's a potpourri of
unmixed things <br /><br />It's the haunting
"what ifs" in your head <br />It's the monster
underneath your bead <br /><br />It's like Heaven, Hell,
and Purgatory <br />Like a chapter missing from the story <br
/><br />It's a post-tomorrow yesterday <br />Of words
your shyness wouldn't say <br /><br />It's like
playing cards with half a deck <br />And a noose tied loosely
'round your neck <br /><br />It's those chances
that you somehow missed <br />Those lips you wish you would have kissed
<br /><br />It's two seconds early when you're
one second late <br />It's the unpredictability of fate <br
/><br />Like the brightest star in midst of day <br />It's
how we feel but seldom say <br /><br />Like an innocent man
awaiting his trial <br />It's the tears that hide behind your
smile <br /><br />Yes, life is like a graceless dance <br
/>Upon the whim of circumstance<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="143"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">All of Us</span> <br /><br />I have a video
tape at home that spans the course of a few years and the lives of a few
friends that I will forever hold dear in my heart. When it was finished, the
tape was appropriately named “All of Us.” I decided to throw it in the VCR
the other day and it gave me the inspiration for this poem.<br /><br
/>There we were <br />All of us together <br />Smiling so
carelessly <br />Do you remember that? <br /><br />I do <br
/>So vividly <br />As if it were <br />More than just a memory
<br /><br />But I guess if it were <br />You’d all be here
now <br />And I often wonder <br />Why you aren’t <br
/><br />Josh, T, Elatia- <br />Now, there’s Amoriah and Levi
too <br />But no one knows where they went, <br />All I know is
that they’ve gone <br /><br />Todd and Jenn... <br />They’ve
both gone too <br />Aumont and Jeannie, and baby Isabella- <br />Somewhere
in the bay area last I heard <br /><br />Kory in DC, Arin in
Cali, <br />And you down Phoenix… <br />And the one that made it
all happen- <br />Lil Jimmy James…who knows where he’s gone! <br
/><br />Of course, there were others, <br />Like Pete and
Monica <br />Adam and Jair… <br />Jen and Shon- <br
/><br />But they weren’t so close <br />So I don’t wonder too
much <br />Of their whereabouts <br />Or them of mine I’m sure <br
/><br />There are times when occasionally <br />I reminisce
with Von- <br />But he’s got Erin now, <br />So those times are
few and far between <br /><br />And all I can say <br />Is
that I miss them, <br />And that I miss you <br />… I miss us… <br
/><br />All of us- <br />The way we were then <br />So
carefree, so close, <br />So together <br /><br />So why
then are we so apart now? <br />Why do I feel so alone? <br />Please
tell me that someday <br />You’ll all come back home. <br
/><br />… Dedicated to Richie Rich...and to “All of Us.” … I miss
you guys!<br /><br /><a href="#index5">Back to Index</a> <br
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/><br /><center><a name="index6"></a> <span
style="font-weight: bold"> <span style="text-decoration:
underline"> ***Lost and Found***</span> </span><br
/><br /><a href="#144">Lost & Found I</a> <br
/><a href="#145">Lost & Found II</a><br
/><a href="#146">Lost & Found III</a><br
/><a href="#147">Lost & Found IV</a><br
/><a href="#148">Lost & Found V</a><br
/><a href="#149">Lost & Found VI</a><br
/><a href="#150">Lost & Found VII</a><br
/><a href="#151">Lost & Found VIII</a><br
/><a href="#152">Lost & Found IX</a><br
/><a href="#153">Lost & Found X</a><br
/><a href="#154">Lost & Found XI</a><br
/><a href="#155">Lost & Found XII</a><br
/><a href="#156">Lost & Found XIII</a><br
/><a href="#157">Lost & Found XIV</a><br
/><a href="#158">Lost & Found XV</a><br
/><a href="#159">Found XVI</a></center><br
/><br /><a name="144"></a> <span style="font-weight:
bold">Lost & Found I</span> <br /><br />Lost...
<br />Hidden behind the dumpsters <br />In the unforgiving urban
alleys <br />You can hear it in her fear stifled cries<br />…Her
innocence<br /><br />Found... <br />While gazing into your
eyes <br />Through your soul <br />Within your heart <br />...Beauty<br
/><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a> <br
/><br /><br /><center><a name="145"></a>
<span style="font-weight: bold">Lost & Found II</span>
<br /><br />Lost...<br />Somewhere between daydreams<br
/>And a child's toy box<br />...My marbles<br /><br
/>Found…<br />Between the lines <br />Beyond the poetry <br
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/><br /><br /><a name="146"></a> <span
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/><br />Lost... <br />Shortly after "Hello" <br
/>Stuck treading in the deep blue pools <br />... Of your eyes<br
/><br />Found... <br />Circling my mind <br />Commanding
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/>...Your love<br /><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a> <br
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<span style="font-weight: bold">Lost & Found IV</span><br
/><br />Lost... <br />In less than a minute <br />... A
lifetime of memories <br /><br />... Dedicated to Shana Robyn<br
/><br />Found... <br />With careful perlustration <br />And
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/><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><br /><a name="148"></a> <span
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/><br />Lost... <br />To untimely tragedy <br />Swept
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friend <br /><br />... Dedicated to Shana Robyn<br /><br
/>Found... <br />In your pet peeves and perversions <br />...
The right buttons to push<br /><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a> <br
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<span style="font-weight: bold">Lost & Found VI</span>
<br /><br />Lost... <br />In a faceless crowd <br />Drowned
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/>I step up to the mirror <br />In the reflection <br />... A
case of mistaken identity<br /><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><br /><a name="150"></a> <span
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/><br />Lost... <br />Crumpled up and tossed into the trash <br
/>Words no longer having meaning <br />Their value obsolete <br
/>When followed by your name <br />... Love letters<br
/><br />Found... <br />Unfamiliar hairs upon your pillow <br
/>Scarlet smudges on your collar <br />Untimely sanitary napkins in
the trash <br />... Evidence of your guilt <br /><br
/><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a> <br
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/><br />Lost... <br />Somewhere between thought and paper <br
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Please keep it my love<br /><br />Found... <br />Meaning
and purpose <br />Friendship and appreciation <br />Hidden deep
within the most simple of things <br />… A Pez dispenser<br
/><br />... Dedicated to Shana Robyn<br /><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a> <br
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/><br /><br /><a name="154"></a> <span
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<br />At the back of your promises <br />Buried beneath the
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<br />... The truth<br /><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a> <br
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<span style="font-weight: bold">Lost & Found XII</span><br
/><br />Lost... <br />Let all time be frozen <br />Let
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us be consumed <br />... In the moment<br /><br />Found... <br
/>Delivered in today's mail <br />Wrapped neatly in a letter
of condolences <br />Two shiny silver dog tags <br />...The
answer to his disappearance<br /><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><br /><a name="156"></a> <span
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/><br />Lost... <br />Though not in spirit <br />Her
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Dedicated to Monica Perri<br /><br />Found... <br />Admiration,
adoration <br />Encouragement and hope <br />But most of all, a
friend <br />...In you <br /><br />... Dedicated to Monica
Perri<br /><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a> <br
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<span style="font-weight: bold">Lost & Found XIV</span><br
/><br />Lost... <br />To prematurity <br />Born before
its time <br />...The love of a little girl <br /><br />...
Dedicated to Patrik Eugene Corey<br /><br />Found... <br />Tucked
away in the cellar of my soul <br />Aged like a fine merlot <br
/>Awaiting fate's toast to the future <br />... My love
poured upon you <br /><br />... Dedicated to Patrik Eugene Corey<br
/><br /><a href="#index6">Back to Index</a></center><br
/><br /><br /><a name="158"></a> <span
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/><br />Lost... <br />Upon an about-faced turn <br />To
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/>A priceless collection of poetry <br />Buried under years of dust <br
/>Long forgotten <br />... In the archives<br /><br
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<span style="font-weight: bold">Found XVI</span><br
/><br />Found... <br />Another so-called friend <br />Another
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/><a href="#160">Ode to the Yo-yo (June
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<span style="font-weight: bold">Ode to the Yo-yo (June 2005)</span>
<br /><br />Active intelligence gone again <br />So what am
I to do <br />Got to stop drumming my fingers... <br />So I guess
I'll play with you <br /><br />Wrap you round my finger <br
/>Then hold you in my hand <br />All coiled and perfect <br />Now
let's see if you can land <br />(right back here in my hand) <br
/><br />I watch as you leap over <br />And plummet toward the
floor <br />Sure enough, you did it! <br />You came right back
for more <br /><br />Unclench my fist to release you <br />And
watch you once again <br />I forgot how bored I was <br />Thanks
for being there dear friend <br /><br />Who would have ever
guessed <br />That such a silly little thing <br />Could be so
entertaining <br />When hanging by a sting <br /><br />So
if I should ever find myself <br />Just staring at the wall <br
/>I'll be sure to grab you once again <br />And curl you in a ball <br
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2005)</span><br /><br />**Poplarville is a town
just north of Biloxi, Mississippi where my uncle Larry lives/lived...**<br
/> <br />People <br />Out there <br />People I love <br
/>Lost. Unsure if they're <br />Alive, or dead, or safe <br
/>Restless with worry, weary with tears<br />Vivid images plastered
on the evening news <br />Instill fear even deeper in to my mind<br
/>Losing hope by the minute that I'll ever see <br />Larry-
my uncle Larry, alive again, but I keep searching <br />Every day I
check the internet and the news for his name <br /><br />Still,
no word of his safety- still no rest for my mind <br />Overwhelmed with
"I wonders" and "What ifs." Exhausted
from "When wills" and "Wheres"<br
/>So please, if you're out there somewhere, somehow, let us know
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